The post about what it feels like to die; that was a speculation. Not a report of death. I have not, in any sense of the word, died. Neither expressly or implied. I do not know what it is to die, but if I get the chance to tell you I will.
Tonight was a different realization, about fear and what it is to be afraid. I was afraid that my fears would forever haunt me, that was the fear. Not death, or fire, or falling, or anything like that; just fear.