The armor is complete

The armor is done, now all that have to do is to put the pieces together...

huh?

If you go to a bank and pay off the loan that a company has with the bank, do you own the club?

Charming, isn't it?

I feel pretty oh so pretty...
but seriously-- I am about to scream.
SCREAM! now I am watching Charmed.

feel better now

I feel a great deal better now that i have picked some dates for hanging, focusing, and programing. Pheww...

the revolution will not be televised

The above video documents the overthrow of a President by the rich sector of a population. It is funny how this small group of people could do such a huge thing. We hear of small groups doing massive things, and we hope that it is a great victory towards humanity. But the reality is far less romantic, especially in this case. These people stepped on their "fellow" citizens for oil money. Kinda funny how oil is always at the bottom of these problems. I believe that I live in a country that I should not have to worry about this, a coup d'etate. But you never know.
The most frightening of all aspects of this video is the media. There is no such thing as an unbiased media in this country. Apparently there is 5 companies that own all the media, and they control the flow of information. The reason this is so dangerous is due the fact that US citizens live in democracy were we assume that there si a free flow of information. not so much.

guitar QUEERO

Yep, i am one of those people. I just beat easy mode, and I am off to medium mode. It only took 2 months! keep in mind that i only play it at josh's house and that I spent a lot of the time playing with him, especially in the beginning. My poor little pinkie.
Mark doesn't care for video games, josh only cares because i do, and my mom is hopelessly lost with a controller in her hands. I had her over a while ago to play it and for dinner, it went well. But she didn't do to well at the game.

moral: if you play hard, you'll get better. Play too hard and your little pinkie will hurt...

Channeling emotion

In west side story, there is a brief moment were the reason the boys must fight is explained, it is too get rid of all the extra feeling they feel, and once they rumble they feel so healthy. Odd.
In my life, I am confronted with many tasks, most of the ones for school are not very therapeutic, so I found myself making armor today. Interesting.
I need to buy a serious amount of Elmer's glue today, I need it for my armor. But, I think it is going to look great.
I will soon have the spray paint for the sword, that will take a day to spray, then the next day I will detail it. Then the sword will be done.
The wings are out of my hands, so I can only trust they will be done on time.
The armor is my biggest challenge.

baby elephant walk

I can always depend on a few things to cheer me up. Music is a great thing. One song that I can't ever make it through without whistling along is "Baby Elephant Walk" by Mancini.
I made some art today. Like all the other emo people do when they are sad. Although I am not emo, I am just sensitive. Yes, some of you might be asking what is the difference? Simple answer, emo kids have more money than I do. Seriously, all that emo gear is not cheap.
I am going out tonight, with josh. Then tomorrow I begin with my counseling and then classes. Things are working in circles, slow circles.
Think hard about that.

Privee

information is power. You don't deserve it, as a reader, you get information in a Plato-kinda way. Plato had this idea about stuff being a copy of some original.

Photogenic

You know what makes people photogenic? It is depth. Humans can see depth, because they have two eyes. But a camera only sees from one angle, with one eye. It is this difference that makes people photgenic or not.

The forum

I am back on the forum, and it is funny the stuff that comes up on a private forum. People will say things that they wouldn't say on a public forum.

Looking over a weary shoulder, counting the sunsets this midsummers day, my mind wandered. Missed opportunities, lost loves, turning points in ones life, different goals, I pondered how many times, and with how many different people I'd fallen in love with.

Yes, I believe you can fall in love with more than one person in a lifetime, real love, that carries obsessional and passionate thougts and feelings, caring and thoughtful, really in love.

I thought, and counted six people I'd fallen in love with, some interupted by tragedy, others by my stupidity, and youthful foolishness, wanderlust and immaturity. I did in fact miss opportunities for love, and yes I fell in love with more than one person at the same time. I think that this is natural, and can happen to anyone,,,,,,,?

Discontented by the thought of monogomy,,,,,,no. I wanted marriage, and no, not a polygamy by nature fanatic, just a bunch of circumstances, that deprived me of experiences some people in my age group share w/one person for a lifetime.

Do people fall in love with more than one person in a lifetime, and is it possible to truly be in love with more than one person at one time. I think yes, I was wondering what you thought,,,,,,,

Jerry C.

I am not one to love, especially to admit that I might love. I none the less answered his post with one of my own.
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Turok

Turok is broken! Now what am I supposed to shoot at?

Too Far

I dug too deep recently. You can see the post about it below someplace. I suppose that in retrospect, the beauty of the situation is that I am more of an island than I ever intended. I crave social interaction. That will be my downfall. I have taken extreme measures to find out what I know. And it has cost me. More my integrity than anything else.
I arte requestare un amigo a put elle occupado en elle linne. Caused matto dmittare a mia reputino, e tatte a marnea sippe.
I just wish it could go away. You have no idea what I would give for it to just... be gone.

Figlio Perduto

There is a legend of a lost child in the woods. Separated from a human father and taken away by a Elvin king.

This song was put into an operatic piece, and used as the theme for the Movie "The Fall". It plays once at the beginning of the movie and once at the end.
So sad...
The movie is amazing and beautiful.

Chalk on the wall, dirt under the nails

I have seena lot of things in my life, I mena more than the average 22 year old white male. Many 22 year olds are more experienced in certain things, less in other things (which I happen to excel in).
I suppose that I should be more to the point. because of what I do in my life, I have access to a lot of information. And information is power. I have hunted down and scoped out more information as of late. And i know something that I didn't want to see.

I needed to STOP DIGGING AROUND! I knew I might not like what I found. I should have just backed off, and stopped asking questions. I was getting close to a secret that I couldn't handle. Should have let it go.


I just couldn't let it go.

would not come

If I am masculine I will be taken more seriously
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
If I'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
And Still it would not come
--Alanis Morissette

Up so early.

I believe the below says it all.

In my Fantasy

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo giusto,
Li tutti vivono in pace e in onestà.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo chiaro,
Li anche la notte è meno oscura.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano.
Pien' d'umanità.

Nella fantasia esiste un vento caldo,
Che soffia sulle città, come amico.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Dangerous, again

I am returning to facebook. For there is no longer anything hiding from me. The guilty party has come forward. And Will be accepting punishment sometime down the road. Hopefully sooner than later.

Dangerous...

Facebook is dangerous. I am going to go dormant for a while. Please don't' think that this has anything to do with any third party personnel, it is an internal thing. Ask details if you must, but I am sure that when someone omits certain information... they are guilty of crimes most heinous.
I suppose that the lesson to be learned here is that sometimes silence speaks louder than words can. Just repeat that slowly, it isn't as lame as it sounds.

early again

I am back to waking up at 6 or 7 in the morning to do classwork... yippee.

Oedipus Tyrannos

This is probably my new second favorite play of all time. It is really good. I mean the plot line sounds boring and crappy, but once you read it, it all meshes together so well. Anyway... good play, all should read it.
Moral: there is a reason why certain things are classics and are still being read today...

the things we do

I cannot believe I am actually going to see a professional about my lack of lust... This sucks...

Edit: But, whatever... at least you know i am trying. I think that counts for something. I know your trying really hard too. And I understand that your attempts are pretty much at my request. So this is the least I owe you.

OK, but seriously

What does it take to get an A in this class...
I am not going to kiss anymore ass right now. I already have a mouth full of ass from my Censorship class...
Sign Language is going to be far more difficult that I anticipated, also. So lord help me...

Eagle Eye

A fun film with little merit if you have more than half a brain and can see futurism where creators and directors failed to realize what they were making. The film itself is a great time, lots of stuff exploding and it has "my boy" in it as the lead. josh knows who I mean. Anyway. The reason why I decide to post this tonight basically boils down to: fate brings people together. I saw a couple tonight at work who met in line for coffee. They are only dating, but you never know if they will make it all the way to gettin' hitched.
In the movie, the two lead characters are not brought together by fate, but by a crazy computer that controls almost everything. In the end they become close(?) friends.
Moral of the story: I am tired and don't want to write my paper.
Moral of that addition: Never be surprised if what you are reading looks like it might hold some merit, but is nothing more than mindless dribble.

C_hange_s

I am upgrading to vista.
From there. I will not install Boinc. I will test each part in this order.
Removal of Raid_1 for primary HDD, converted into a single Hard disk that will have a c:/Feresh files folder. Not a partition.
I will move my audio card down so that I am sure it receives enough airflow.
I can expect all this to cut the power requirements by 40 watts.
Everything will be set to default, and I will not be overclocking for a few weeks.
Motherboard monitor 5, is all that i will using for monitoring my computer. Process explorer is probably not going to happen...
But I just don't understand.

vista

this is how vista works: oem sales are based on a one time install... or at least a one motherboard install. in order to get around that, you must claim that it is a replacement based on a warranty.

Mysteries of the Organism

it's impressionism.

Begin the tests

I have made it through the night. I will start up trillian again. I will also be runing the indexer, as that is very unlikely to cause the freeze.

The hardest part

The most difficult of things that I have had to do recently would be to maintain my cool. I have been having trouble with my computer. And it seems that I have possibly found the solution... it can only be a few things: or so I feel. I will be testing them in this order: Trillian, the index engine of my computer, a osi drive emulator, Boinc, process explorer, a ram monitor, and a temperature monitor. Most likely it is the Boinc or the iso emulator...

Moral of the story: If you must suffer, and most suffer alone, at least try and strategically end your suffering. Do it in a calm way that will result in the least amount of damage, be swift and do not drag it all out.