male abortion

Although it does not affect me, I still feel that I deserve an opinion on the subject matter. I finally found the way to describe what i have been trying to say with my previous attempts.
'When a female determines she is pregnant, she has the freedom to decide if she has the maturity level to undertake the responsibilities of motherhood, if she is financially able to support a child, if she is at a place in her career to take the time to have a child, or if she has other concerns precluding her from carrying the child to term. After weighing her options, the female may choose abortion. Once she aborts the fetus, the female's interests in and obligations to the child are terminated. In stark contrast, the unwed father has no options. His responsibilities to the child begin at conception and can only be terminated with the female's decision to abort the fetus or with the mother's decision to give the child up for adoption. Thus, he must rely on the decisions of the female to determine his future. The putative father does not have the luxury, after the fact of conception, to decide that he is not ready for fatherhood. Unlike the female, he has no escape route'.
--Melanie McCulley

I should have said

A guy stopped me dead in my tracks as I was walking home from work today, just outside of Hound Dogs pizza. He was wearing a black wife beater and his friend was sitting on the stoop wearing a black bandanna, but in a different way than I wear mine. Both were wearing torn loose shorts. They were hipsters/punky kinda losers. The one standing, in the wife beater, just looked at me with his mouth wide open. I asked if I knew him, and he didn't move-- at all. I just looked at him for a long moment.
I eventually just walked away. But what I should have said was, "I have loved you all my life". As that is the only thing I can think of that is shocking enough to match the expression on his face.

Moral: some people just try and get a rise out of people, or try and make others feel uncomfortable. It is best to just play right back and trap them in their game.

Twitter this!

I am standing behind my nose...
Oh look at that! I can be artistic and use the old technology.

wait. old technology? yep. blogging is apparently olde school. In the words of Fred Terri, there is no school like the old school.
Goodnight Columbus.

nina simone... i gotta get more

Nina Simone
The Best Of Nina Simone
Four Women


My skin is black, my arms are long
My hair is woolly, my back is strong
Strong enough to take the pain, inflicted again and again
What do they call me? My name is aunt Sarah
My name is aunt Sarah, aunt Sarah

My skin is yellow, my hair is long
Between two worlds I do belong
But my father was rich and white
He forced my mother late one night
And what do they call me?
My name is Saffronia, my name is Saffronia

My skin is tan, my hair fine
My hips invite you, my mouth like wine
Whose little girl am I? Anyone who has money to buy
What do they call me? My name is Sweet Thing
My name is Sweet Thing

My skin is brown, my manner is tough
I'll kill the first mother I see, my life has been rough
I'm awfully bitter these days, because my parents were slaves
What do they call me? My name is Peaches




Get it? it is feminist. Pretty awsome, isn't it?

http://www.whistlingtheatre.com/

pretty lights

I see pretty lights everywhere I go bitches wanna know how high the sycamore grows into me like I crash that killed the princess toadstool is waiting at the castle in the sky.

there. That is surrealist writing. the following were independent thoughts
1. I see pretty lights everywhere. (opening thought)
2. Everywhere I go bitches wanna know Charley Scene ---- (Hollywood Undead)
3. how high the sycamore grows if you cut it down, you'll never know (Pocahonis)
4. crash into me like I crash into you, baby (Dave Mathews Band)
5. the crash that killed the princess. Millions mourned. (excert from "The Dreamer upstairs")
6. Princess toadstool is waiting at the castle for you, Mario. (opening of Mario 64)
7. Castle in the sky (that terrible techno song)
by pressing them together where they fit, they are surrealist. It might look random, but it was very well planned out, and the dissection proves it. There... surrealist art.
Suck it.

case modding

I am going to perform a case mod on Sheila, my computer. I am going to spray paint her olive green.

minority cheack

As I read an interview with Andrew Bridge, the lighting designer for Phantom of the Opera and many other shows, I read a line that he states women don't do it in England. It isn't' really open to them there like it is in the states. and I wonder... can I put this in my presentation on him? Will I be labeled anti-feminist if I say that in England women aren't able to be lighting designers and I like that because it gives me a better chance of success if I ever go there?

Why is it that we feel the need to damage our own chances for success because we want it to be "fair". I don't really feel any loyalty towards a level playing field, I want the scales tipped in my favor all the time. I want to be successful, and if the bias is towards me; great. What is so terrible about that?

never mind

I just found out the worst thing I can say to a deaf guy... and it isn't about them being deaf. It is "never mind". I didn't even have to think about why it is so unfair to say, I figured it out just after i said it. It is completely taking them out of the conversation, and it is like saying, "I don't care enough to reword it". Basically, it discounts them. And in a conversation of two people... it is the end of the conversation.
I made a quick mistake. Now i know. And, even better, I understand.
I have/ had ADD. So I missed stuff sometimes too, and I was told "never mind" a few times. It sucks and makes you feel so alone, and kind of stupid. That is not a good thing. But if the person explains it you usually realize that you understand it more than you know, and it is kind of strange that you were confused initially.

moral: even if someone is completely "Hearing", you still hurt feelings by saying, "never mind."

gaming computers

people who buy gaming computers suck ass. They have no idea what is "under the hood". I was on a forum and a guy bought a gaming computer 5 months ago and is having trouble. I asked if SLI or Crossfire are active or even present on his machine. he had no idea what I meant. I told him the they are video card technologies that link multiple cards together and enhance performance. I told him that if he looks inside hie computer case he would see two or more identical video cards. He opened his case, and then just took a photo... he had no idea how to even look at the innards.
And by the way, he got ripped off... that computer is not worth 900 for just the tower.

at the picnic

dam. I have tried to write this post two times already, this is the thrid attampt.

I went to a deaf picnic. It was fun. Met some nice people. They were deaf.

there; consise, pointful, factful.

and most importantly... leaves nobody out.

I am not a pedophile

Just because I like boys doesn't mean I like little boys... in fact, some, like myself, like big boys.
big, muscly, hairy guys with descended testicles and big cocks.
so step off, you stereotyping, judgemental cliche.
Go fuck yourself, as I am sure your conservative ass would refuse sex from anyone else.

crap

found. just like that horse.

destroyed in paper

I just saw the MFA solo projects. They were good. But I was thrown off by some of the lighting. I wrote about it in my paper for my 625 class. I destroyed the designer, not knowing who it was, expecting each soloist to have organized their specials... but then I read the program. Sorry Jarod... but the truth is out there, I was not impressed with your emotional level in lighting, your practical applications (especially your lightning effect) were very good, but as far as the emotion put forward, you came up lacking.
There, I said it. I will have no problem turning in my paper.

dreaming in color

so apparently, some people can't dream in color? And they can't read in their dreams, as it is process of the other half of their brain. But that is not the case for me. I had a dream last night with lots of colors and some text. it wasn't too bad. Point is, I think people can read in their dreams and see color, just they can't remember it.

she is tough

I met a girl who worked collections for a bank just briefly. She said the worst was when she had to tell a woman to pay the mortgage, but the woman said that her husband had cancer and son was too young. She was the only income.
But then this girl told me that she has been through a foreclosure and lived in a shelter. She is tough-- tough as nails.

liberal vs conservitive

ok, I need you to follow me on this. read it slowly if you must, but it is important.

The general upward trend of society is liberalism, it is the birth of every revolution. Conservatism is generally favored by those who have the most money and power. Now... as young people come of age, they feel the need to correct injustices of society, so they are usually pretty liberal, and then they grow more conservative as they grow older and acquire money and power; in order to protect their money and power. Now, what about the things that don't effect their money or power. Would I be correct in saying that gay allyship will likely be accepted by everyone who accepts it today, even once they grow older. As these things don't effect an individual's power... or does it?
might I ask, does the church loose power as a gay couple gets wed by the state? or does the sandwhich shop down the street loose out when a gay couple opens a gay-cafe?

Think about it.
Moral: (direct quote from above)As young people come of age, they feel the need to correct injustices of society, so they are usually pretty liberal, and then they grow more conservative as they grow older and acquire money and power; in order to protect their money and power.

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Margo Smith

I am supposed to be my own mr. right

You are most likely to meet your "Mr.Right" at your local University or College campus. Avoid guys with torn clothing, t-shirts with slogans and backwards ball caps. Instead, look for a guy who carries himself with pride, is sitting outside with his lap top but gazing around or a guy who always arrives to class early. Consider it a bonus if he is in his graduate year or is in a medical program (he'll be too busy to have another girl) or if he has his own apartment off campus and vehicle (that he pays for himself). Also consider it important to find the man who also has a job while attending college/university- this shows a level of motivation. This particular breed of man needs you to share in common goals and striking up a conversation based on mutual interests or program interests is always the way to go....Smile and let the journey begin!

hurt so bad

imagine a razorblade scraping along under your skin, but above your muscles. through your entire body all at once, coming in waves. that was the fear.

Moral: it is often impossible to describe a feeling. Try to describe the taste of metal. Good luck.