let the poison out.

I know that is strange title. But I feel that it is accurate. i have a lot of bad things going on in my life at this exact moment. i mean professionally and emotionally. I have no choice but to let it all bleed out of me. I am afraid for my friends. I am afraid for my loved ones, and I am afraid that I will never get the chance to make them feel better. I mean I can make them feel better, but I can't fix their problems. Perhaps this can be linked to my earlier philosophy that they a re their problems, they must deal with them. I hate to leave them on the sidelines, but I have no choice.