Hollywood undead

Was great, I just got back from the Newport. The band liked my shirt.
And I have confirmed my suspicions: they are just a bunch of angry white boys.

Lunch with Suhayl

As I ride this planet around the sun I realize that people come and go. Most times you don't really think that people are going to go, they just sort of fade away. And then you wake up one day and realize you have no idea where they are. This is not the case with college, where you realize that people are going to go away once they graduate.
I had lunch with Suhayl today, who I now know is leaving in a couple of months. We had a great time today, I can see myself spending more time with his ass. I invited him to join the huge group of people going to zoombeezie bay next week, and he is bringing some of hims friends, so I will get to meet them. Now... that takes the number up to like 8 people.
Anyway. He recently graduated and now is going to move to Chicago. He will be leaving his closest friends... something that I am sure none of them expected to happen.

Sent my head

I sent my head, but she hasn't painted it yet... I hope she is just busy, and not that she didn't want to paint mine. Even if that is the case, I suppose it is not my business to tell people how to do their art.

the boyfriend

let me tell you a story. it involves A,B, and C.
A has a big crush on B. For many reasons, it is a one way sort of deal. Now, A finds out that B has a boyfriend, C. He actually meets C, this is how A finds this out. Then one fateful day, A enters the building where he and B see each other regularly (about twice a week.) And who does he find waiting for B? none but C. So he sits down and starts talking to C, and has a lovely conversation, about nothing in particular. Then enters B after about half an hour of A and C's conversation. A does not see C for a long time, and eventually does not see B for a long time too. But not because he isn't trying, as A often tries to find excuses to contact B. And one of these reasons is a "wait, you're single now? what happened to C?"
After months, C contacts A. The two communicate very often, and A starts to feel like C might have some sort of feeling for A. However, A doesn't really feel like that about C, and starts to feel bad about B and not telling C about A's feelings for B. So A puts it behind him.

Now, what is the worst, most Shakespearean thing that could happen?
The worst possible scenario as follows: B told C to save him from A and this is how C got A to leave B alone...

let them out

everything table.
I I people things all them. jack of all trades master none part.

words meant to hurt

I understand being upset, and then saying things you don't mean. But that is completely different than being sly and hurtful.
For example; "I have learned never to expect sex from you when promised it."
uhm. uncalled for. and i don't really mind the whole internet knowing it.

somethign a little less criptic

Today I went to a photoshoot.
I wish I had a 3rd light to work with, but... no dice.
The models did a good job, and I jumped in for a few photos. Although, something is bothering me a little bit-- there was a moment of unnecessary unease.
I would admit that I felt a little intimidated by the men surrounding me. Both were in good shape, and both were very nice. I am a different kind of hott... there, that is my reaction.

old men

I am a butterfly. I will tell an 60 year old man my self-confidence problems. and he will nod and say, in all seriousness (out of character for him) "They have nothing on you."

or something like that.

The wisdom of men who have gone before us is never to be discounted. I have much to learn from someone who has made it through this hectic life in one piece. I just have to pay attention.

Moral: Boys will be boys. and gay boys will be girls. And old men will be perfect council in a perfect world.

Unexpected song

Step back from your life for a moment... see anything out of place? Does your life just sort of congeal nicely? If so, you might consider yourself lucky. But there is another side. Experiences make us stronger. I know a guy who's sister had to hide a very large quantity of beer. That same day, social services was called tot eh house because he was a former ward of the state (adoptive parents are sometimes subject to this interrogation!?!?!) It was the strange teamwork as he performed his interview for the Social service official (he was the one who was adopted) while she tried to hide this beer. 24 cases. TWEENTY FOUR!!! The social services official never found out, but the parents sure did.
the point of the story is that the family grew closer as they were all about to loose unless they worked together. That rough spot was a good thing, it built character and camaraderie.

Moral: Don't try and iron out all of life's wrinkles.

because it feels so good!

another mack bash:
Unlike Mac, Windows is a sophisticated piece of software, imagine coding for thousands and thousand of hardware and each and every one of the hardware works seamlessly with Windows. Mac however has only one hardware vendor to code for, if Mac is in the same situation as Windows, Mac would have been a bloated, buggy and an unstable OS.

itunes (last graph in this series)... player for luddites. All the other benchmarks show an increase in performance (or decrease in render times). While itunes remains unchanged, actually harmed by multiple cores.

questions so rude

is there a nice way to ask someone why you are still friends? Ir it rude to ask a person to provide you with a reason for you to continue talking to them? why should we spend our efforts on people, if there is no point. Just because we have grown comfortable with them? maybe even comfortably numb?
Society judges us by the company we keep, and sometimes it is best to keep someone away, or let them drift away on there own.
There it is right there--> drift away on their own. As of this moment I will not put forward the effort. It is on their shoulders. Should I never hear from them again, then I just let it get away- float away and deflate like a flaccid balloon.

The original web article shows how one man went from Isheep to informed user. I think this is a great article, mostly because he makes a point in his last paragraph.
http://www.vectronicsappleworld.com/2006/0804.asp

The Apple web is perhaps the most dynamic sector of the Internet. Thousands of people labor day and night to feed the technological swill that we all lap up. The web has undergone dramatic changes over the years, but one thing remains the same, the iSheep march on.

iSheep are Apple zealots who can't see past whatever technological or philosophical incarnation Apple is religiously lauding at any particular moment in time. iSheep are cult-like in their devotion to their Apple religion. They wage ruthless jihad on the infidels, those who suffer the unforgivable blasphemy of not using Apple products. But the cult of Apple is just like every other cult created by man. Those blinded by ideology are in the end made to be the fool.

This website is full of "iSheepery." One only has to read the postings of years past. The primary rule of this site is that once you post it, it stays posted, so you better mean what you say when you say it. Looking back at some of the old opinion posts, I believe that some of the authors are probably now a bit embarrassed by their iSheep rantings.

That is the problem with the iSheep mentality. You don't realize you are an iSheep while you are caught up with your iSheepness. It is not until you realize how silly is your devotion, that you can actually see the world from the perspective of a rational human. Until then, you are nothing more than a ranting iSheep.

For example, in the early 1990s, the iSheep were all up in arms over the switch from the 68K Motorola processor to the PowerPC processor. The iSheep had for years been fed the convincing Apple propaganda of IBM = bad, Motorola = good. IBM was a significant partner, along with Motorola, in the creation of PowerPC technology. How could Apple shrug off its old line dogma aimed squarely at Big Blue?

Apple took another page out of George Orwell's 1984, and this time it didn't have anything to do with "Big Brother." How do you turn an enemy into a friend? Create another enemy. Nothing motivates a cult more than hate. Apple shifted its propaganda from IBM is evil to Microsoft is evil. This happened overnight and was extremely unsubtle. Suddenly, IBM became an ally in the battle against the real enemy, Microsoft, who had coupled with an even more diabolical and evil foe, Intel. Why was Microsoft evil? They make really good office software. I don't care for their operating system, but I wouldn't exactly call them evil.

iSheep bought into "Microsoft is evil" hook, line, and sinker. Here was the line fed to and repeated by the iSheep: Microsoft makes horrible software and Intel makes horrible, slow, and inefficient processors. Sure, I bought into it just like everyone else. I was an iSheep.

Apple shifted its propaganda from a battle over hardware (Apple II/ Macintosh versus IBM) to a battle over software (MacOS versus Windows). There was still the obligatory jihad against Intel or other industry standard equipment, but the main focus was with MacOS, which was unfortunate for Apple because Windows caught up with and perhaps even surpassed Classic MacOS in the late 1990s. Apple needed a spin. They needed something to bring the iSheep back into the fold, something to keep the faithful, well, faithful.

They once again moved back to the hardware angle and produced beautiful candy-colored computers. The iSheep fawned and purred, but Apple was finding it hard to hide the embarrassing fact the MacOS was about 5 years down on the high tech curve. Apple played it beautifully. They filled the iSheep with the holy word, OS 8 is wonderful and then OS 9 is the most advanced operating system in the world. The iSheep again lapped it up. They bought every word.

Huge efforts were made by the iSheep using the young Internet to spread the word to all corners of the world. MacOS is superior to Windows! MacOS is superior to Windows! Microsoft is evil! Bill Gates is the new Big Brother!

And then Apple partnered with Microsoft. Sounds familiar doesn't it. Apple realized that it needed Microsoft as a friend way more than it needed it as a propaganda tool. So Apple entered into a detente with the evil monopoly and the evil monopoly kept making its evil Microsoft Office for the Mac so that the holy Apple Corp would not go under. Bill Gates loved the coin thrown his way by the little iSheep following Apple's lead.

But for Apple to keep the iSheep religiously funneling money back into its coffers, the company still needed to maintain an enemy and as always, Intel fit the bill. Oh, how we spent hours in the forums back in the late 1990s, making fun of Intel. The Pentium is garbage, megahertz is a myth, Alta-Vec is awesome, and on and on and on. Apple really had us iSheep sputtering all their holy pronouncements with fervor and conviction. But trouble was brewing in the cult. Apple was about to make its greatest transition since the PowerPC chip replaced the 68K chip. Apple was going to kill Classic MacOS in favor of a Unix-based operating system developed by another company, OS X.

This iSheep propaganda machine was a sight to behold, let me tell you. Apple spun it with an ingenuity seldom seen in the business world. They came up with a catchy symbol: "X," and named it after large predatory felines, "Puma," "Jaguar," "Panther," "Tiger," "Leopard." Now the enemy was no longer external. The new enemy was internal, Classic MacOS. Classic was now called vile, old, primitive, and dangerously flawed. OS X would save the company where Classic was leading it to destruction.

It was a blood bath. The iSheep were eating their own. The evil Classic iSheep supporters had to be put down, removed, silenced, and shunned because OS X was going to save us from total oblivion. Finally, after a few years, the iSheep emerged stronger from the experience. Mention Classic MacOS in any forum, and you will immediately be attacked. Classic sucks, OS X is the greatest thing ever, ect., ect. I can hardly wait for the impending spectacle that will result when Apple encourages a new generation of iSheep to kill off the OS X iSheep. Perhaps they will name the next generation OS after birds like Falcon or Eagle or Condor. Now that would be a cool way to brainwash the future iSheep. It is going to be disastrous for many sites on the Internet. Sites with domain names containing "OSX" will have to change or die. So strong have they been programmed that they may think OS X is forever. Believe me, Apple II wasn't forever, neither is OS X.

So what is happening today? I think that is most obvious. Apple has once again done a radical 180 and embraced a former hated and scorned enemy. You guessed it. After spending millions upon millions pushing the PowerPC architecture and encouraging the iSheep to poke fun at everything else, they are abandoning it in favor of Intel. Furthermore, they have all but abandoned Apple proprietary standards in favor of superior industry standards. Say goodbye to ADB and AppleTalk and say hello to USB and Ethernet.

Even OS X is losing its importance. If you don't like it, you can run Windows instead. This is astounding. How many iSheep have spent countless hours defending the honor of their holy OS only now to be told that it wasn't all that important after all?

I am no longer an iSheep. I try to evaluate technology on what I need versus what it costs. In my opinion, Apple is the best computer on the market. I couldn't conceive of owning any other brand. Microsoft produces the best Office applications. iLife is for amateurs and iWeb is a joke. .Net is pretty cool and Apple doesn't have a clue about how to be an Internet services company. .Mac is a disaster. These opinions are based on reason and forethought. I hope your choices are based on reason and forethought as well. Being an iSheep is similar to being a slave. Think for yourself. Think different.

the lord provides

Really, just go out and be a good person, and do good things, and help people. Good things will come to you. Recently, because I helped someone, I was truly blessed.

The Cube

such racism. There are only two black people in the entire movies series, and it is both of them that go crazy and kill the others. They are the angry characters.

I cube 1 he drops the one woman to her death. and in cube 3 he tries to kill both heroes.

I'd rather not say

I think I might need to get another job, I mean an additional one. It would be foolish to quit my current one.

on the outside

I am on the outside, looking in. And I like it that way. I don't need the freaky brotherhood that you all belong to, I am better off forming myself into whatever I want to be.

YOU can download the internet -- Today!

Let's be honest, MOST Mac AND PC users are dumb enough that you could convince them they could download the internet with enough tech jargon. It's why IT people have jobs. It's why Best Buy can get away with selling $150 Geeksquad "service" that includes such scary and complicated things as "virus removal" and "spyware check".

The best thing the technology support industry ever did for itself was sound complicated enough that people are scared to touch it. Imagine the caveman as he is fascinated and simultaneously terrified by fire, now upgrade that caveman to a businessman and upgrade the fire to firewire 800.

Rock Band

I have played both Rock Band and Guitar Hero. So , my final judgement is this: Guitar Hero III is way more fun, and has a way greater replay-ablility than Rock Band. It was nice to play drums for a while, unfortunetly, my stage fright prohibited me from singing Roxanne.

what is coming over me?

Am I becoming more intolerant of a person, am I wrong in wanting the best for myself? wanting to exercise as many rights as I can get my hands on? Wanting to tip all scales in my favor? Is that self centered? obviously it is, but what is so bad about being self centered. Literally, at least in this case, it is about putting myself in a good spot.
This is me making myself feel better

But seriously, have i become more jagged?