odd bag of emotions (at 2:30 am)

I try to not be pissed.
But, realizing that i have no right to be. And it all makes sense. I see what you have been hiding from me for so long. That you lied and hid it from me for months, and then kept cloaked in vagueness until yesterday. You still haven't told me, because you don't think I should know, I found out all by myself and hundreds of miles didn't hide it any better than 5 blocks would have. But, do not think that I am going to hold you up longer. I shall let you float... so very gently away.

But, I can not keep you from calling back to me. I am not sure how I will respond, with anger or with love. Foe now; this explains silence. For future, I tell you lovingly to fuck off.