outlook

Double, double, switch, switch.
Double, Double, hearty, hearty.
Double, double, switch, don't forget to dance.

Pablo Picasso's Desire Caught by the Tail
Here is your tea: no cup, no saucer, no milk, no sugar, no water, no tea.

And Alice in Wonderland
The Duchess: If everybody minded their own business, the world would go around a great deal faster than it does.

I feel no need to explain any of it.

chuckle

hi Page!
I see you watching!![wink]

reverse tracking

thank god for modern technology. I can now see the IP address of those who read my blog, and for those that don't know what that means:

Every time that you view my blog, there is a counter and recorder. It records what time and who viewed the web page. This wonderful technology is based on the exchange of what is called a cookie. There is nothing harmful done to the viewer's computer, nothing at all is left on there, all the information travels upstream to the main servers and trackers.

if I could just find out who
14.47.405.01 is... they have been watching rather closely lately.

just berfore I head off to work

So, I see what you have tried to do.
I am on to you. I knew it would come to this, so I came prepared. I took every precaution to avoid your trap, and in the end. I win. I let you think I gave into your attempts, but You will see later that i am the one who controls the situation.

Moral: Don't assume that you are the pack leader, you usually are wrong. If you are the one that "pack leader" thinks is the "underdog", the illusion you provide is one of your most powerful attributes. Wink more.

2001: A space Odyssey --> sucks!

Even if you understand the futurism behind it, it still sucks. The shots are too long, and the ape scene is too -- how to say-- overly dramatic.

why

i am sure that you told me already, but i can't remember why you don't like my new friend. I don't think that he is slime. Just because he has one friend that is a shithead doesn't mean that he is, although i do value your opinion. Moore than most others. I just wish that you would remind me why you don't like him.

reality

We don't know what life is, yet we're still alive.
- a quote taken from The Mother by Witkacy

why?

I ask myself why a lot. Especially when it concerns things I have chosen to do. I suppose that communication is a good thing. But last night was a rough time. I feel like a jerk now... but I am sort of glad that I said it, because now I am not just internalizing it all. Maybe it even explains why I it has been about three weeks since I have really done anything about it...

something wonderful

Every instant message of my recent life is documented. All except for one. I never thought I would enjoy that. But i liked what happened today. It is all gone, this one conversation i mean. But it is like it only happened for me and this other person. Memories only.

i love it.

on women

I don't really know how I feel about women. They tend to be rather needy.
Maybe I am just jaded, but it seems that most of the needy people that I See in my life are females. My mother, Ann, even some of my professional friends. Really, it is not that i don't like helping people, but seriously? Do you really expect me to do that? People wonder why I am so stressed out, and why It is taking so long to go through school. Why I am sometimes late to work, late to class, late for my own things; because I am busy doing things for these people; I am not putting myself first. It gives me a sense of worth, knowing that they appreciate me-- but suddenly I am starting to feel that they don't appreciate me.
I am not one to ask for assistance unless I have done as much myself as possible. And, as I have noticed, my guy friends are the same way. But these women-- are they even trying? I am not sure anymore.

say what?!?!?

all I will say is:
Dream
Captain of a Football Team
Homosexual Deviance
Nice Guy
Filtered Water
Dish Soap on Tap

This translates to an idea that society has painted into my mind. I attribute this to a thing i heard on the news yesterday, about how a congressman or someone wants some football player to be let off the hook for lying to congress.

triscuits

I have had so many varieties of triscuits crackers recently, and something funny happened today:
I got a plain triscuit in my box of rosemary and olive oil triscuits.
Oh, the shame!

I knew it would happen eventually

Good morning, Fru!
Didn't expect that I would bump into you. I suppose that it was to be expected.

jobs

you know what job would be really embarrassing to have?
set designer for adult films... hehehe.

what I did

I just did something great. I showed restraint. Go me...

she had it right

The only way out is through. I will grant her that.
In my modernism class we find ourselves asking "is there a away out?" I finally had the prefect answer one day, it was the day of futurism--> the only way out is through.

We have to live life in order to get trough it. Formism says that drugs are what we need. Cubism says that we need to break out of the society that holds us, remove ourselves. Naturalism says that we can get out by the removing the people that are above us in society. Symbolism says that we can't get out unless a greater force pulls us out. It might even be argued that Dadaism has a claim in saying that life is "just a joke", getting out is avoiding the whole purpose.

So, the only way out is by staying in. Refuse to leave until the the end presents itself to you.

I would have

I would have knocked on your door and asked if you are ok. But, now, I do not. Why? Because you can not see my good intentions. So, instead, i put on my headphones and act like i can't hear you.

I can have a heart of ice.

on alain

alain: so look down
Me: look down at what exactly?
alain: its help you to communicate
alain: we say that when someone flyes to high
alain: for the other birds who have to follow...
alain: hehe

into your folder

I am adding this to your folder... into your folder, with your name.

logs

god... I feel gayer already...
I really am so confused by straight boys, I think that they should all take relationship advice from me.