all of it.

And if I could, I think I would trade it all.
All the pain and suffering. But then I'd miss the beauty of the light upon this earth and the sweetness in the leaving.

Moral: everything has a price. forgetting pain does not help us grow, it is in the learning from out difficulties that we better ourselves..

something sad

DDR2 RAM requiring 2.0 volts all put up in a row of three pulls really hard on a system's north bridge. So hard that you can only have a total of 4 banks of memory; that means only one DIMM can be double sided. This one, however, is able to handle twice the memory of the other two DIMM sockets. So, totalling 3 sticks hold 4 units of memory. This is why 2.0 volts can be handled on a unit like that. Now, if the north bridge is bumped up in voltage, it has enough force to make it through more than 4 banks, but risks burning out. I have my computer with 8 banks on four DIMMs, but the North bridge is set to 1.7 volts and the RAM is running at 1.9 Volts. That is not a mistake.
The point is, I have that ability to monitor and understand this. If it burns, or breaks i can fix it. For a computer built for someone else,I follow the rules.

On Tony

There is no question: Tony is back on my good side. There was an obvious reason that I disliked him. But as the old mongers say, "An enemy of my enemy is my friend". He and I have a common enemy. Given the current situation, I feel a great swell of pity for Page, given that her brother is now a missing person. Usually the ransom call comes in within 24 hours. Seeing as her father has a large amount of money, it makes sense. or he might have just run away. I personally feel it is the second one.
However, That is not the point of this post.
Tony is on my good side. Tony used to grate on my nerves, but now that, after the smoke has cleared, and all the chips have fallen. Page is not speaking to me, Sam is not speaking to me, but Tony is. I feel that it is ironic. Sam never cared for him either, but she lacked the spine to tell page. I understand, her friendship with page was not deep enough at that point to where she could say such a thing. Tony might have been one reason that Sam and I grew closer, the enemy of an enemy thing.
That is also not the point of this post.
Tony has returned on the scene, and I have been invited to his private climbing gym. This is a good thing. Guys are very different than girls, when two guys duke it out, they are friends afterwards. Girls are nasty...
The moral of this story: An enemy of my enemy is my friend.

movie

the long kiss goodnight

JackAss

Has anyone out there ever seen this movie? be honest. It is kinda funny. The idea of a bunch of guys doing stupid shit. that is enough to entertain me a little bit...
I like the tidal wave stunt.

road kill

The concept of dressing up road kill (I mean putting little hats and coats on it.) is nothing new. Some have done it for years, and no disease has come to them. I will leave it to the professionals... Dead things are not my forte.

Childhood

The best thing about my childhood is that I will never have to return to it. I have put a lot behind me. There are reasons why I grew up quickly.
But, now in retrospect, I am extremely happy to be done with my younger years. Nobody understood me ages 9 to 16. It wasn't till Chanel that i feel like people understood me. My parents thought they knew me, my friends were just extras in my life. and the psychologists! ha, what a joke...
Nope, I much prefer being a grown up.


Moral: Every teen feels like nobody understands them. I agree. You are a freak for at least 4 years of your life. Deal with it, and move on.

War on Drugs

Weil is open about his past use of illegal substances, claiming, "I think I've tried about every drug," in his book From Chocolate to Morphine. He is equally open with his views on ending the War on Drugs, citing the benefits of many banned plants. In fact, the opening paragraph of From Chocolate to Morphine reads: "Drugs are here to stay. History teaches that it is vain to hope that drugs will ever disappear and that any effort to eliminate them from society is doomed to failure." Weil claims that humans have an innate need to alter their consciousness, and that there is no such thing as good or bad drugs, merely that some individuals have good or bad relationships with certain substances.

interesting isn't it? there is a question about how much drugs hurt people. Caffeine, sleep aids, nicotine. There are tons of drugs out there. Every drug has been used and abused by somebody, and every drug has been responsibly used by someone. I am sure that even heroine has been responsibly used... probably. So what is so terrible about altering consciousness? It can make things prettier, or scarier, or god only knows what. But, I maintain that it is not bad if it is not hurting people.
Now when a drug does hurt people, then action needs to be taken. Family and friends need to help people who can't help themselves. Sometimes interventions are best.

thinking TOO far ahead

you know you're thinking too far into the future when you say to yourself, "but, if the rapture comes before I have the chance to--"
yep, I need to calm down.

HEY!! PAY ATTENTION TO ME!! I AMA GOOD PERSON!!!

Major Boobage!

We all know they're fake!
Save your money, it is not like a guy is going to say, "You know what? Your breasts are too small, I can't sleep with you. I'm going to go home alone." We just don't do that.
So, props to our girl Kira Knightly for being famous in Hollywood and having real breasts that are small.

UPS again

I love using UPS. They are so kind in their stores, and they understand that I could just as easily use Fed-ex or another carrier. I am having something delivered my store, which is closed until the 5. They tried to deliver a package, but the sign on the door said closed till the fifth. I checked the tracking and it says that they will redeliver on the 6th. Awesome.

Pride

Pride is the worst of all the deadly sins. A "selfless act" can destroy all the other deadly sins, but not pride. Pride is the one sin you can't beat. What that means is that there is not such thing as a selfless act to pride. Everything you do is to win, all good that you do is for the greater glory of yourself.

I suppose that is only true to a certain point. It still does good for others. Recently I entered into a conversation with a friend. WE discussed the idea that Microsoft is a bad company that does good things. She stood her ground that they are so evil to all ends, while I said that the 4.1 trillion dollars they have donated has done a lot of good. They might be doing it to further a good image, or create a good image, or hide a bad image. But it doesn't change the fact that they are helping people.
Now it is time to reverse. Rather than a selfish act doing good, let's examine a selfless act doing bad-- oh wait, that was my March '08. Not touching that with a ten foot pole.

yes, it is funny.

now this next one, however is a bit more amazing to me. It is actually a perfect example of classic surrealism AND formism. It is a great mixture of the two. The two faces independently are formism; as the jewels decorate them, and the hairline turns into a single form. The neck follows this same principle. the picture as a whole is surrealism, these three things are become on unified object. just as much surrealist work is praised for, this tattoo exemplifies uniformity and a sense of disjointedness.

music

C C D C
C B A
B C D
B B D
D C B

Alright, I'll bite.

Tools of our demise. their is an ancient idea that one must take what is his weakness and turn it into his sole desire. That basically translates into loving your flaws, and then using that to improve yourself and ultimately change for the better. Someone has taken the blog format and made it their own. The downfall, is the uprising. My downfall is not letting this go. I still believe that I am over it, now I am just evening the score a post for a post... yep, I probably should grow up.
I use this blog as a reflecting glass more than anything else. There is something about being able to read your own words, and knowing that others can read them as gospel.
Confused as to how these two fit together?
Let me bring you to a post that tells a story, well deeper story than any of my readers (save those who are my friends) know about.

Her blog
This is the post of a girl whom i used to live with. Things went sour for one reason... well, actually 6 reasons. However she and I only had control (together, as in we both controlled the situation) of only 1 of them. Of the others, she completely controlled one, while i completely controlled another 2.
I think it might interest you to read our posts right after the other. March is the month.

conrad says:

It also occurred to me that I never answered in more detail your question as why good is better than bad.

I said it was definitional and that's true. It's true because 'good' and 'bad' are value terms, they refer to what is valuable, specifically, 'good' refers to what is valuable and what ought to be valued whereas 'bad' refers to what should not be valued. Therefore,

If that seems like just some semantic juggling, the only way to not make it seem like that is to actually take a stance on what is valuable and thus give good and bad a bit more cash value.

There are three and only three positions one can take:

1) there are somethings that are of intrinsic value, we call something 'good' if it either is something that has intrinsic value or was act such that it produces more intrinsic value and we call something bad if it either destroys intrinsic value or prevents the formation of intrinsic value.

2) there are intrinsic evils and something is good if it destroys the intrinsic evils or prevents the formation of more intrinsic evils; bad is something that encourages the growth of more intrinsic evil or prevented the destruction of intrinsic evil

3) there are both intrinsic values and intrinsic evils

I think Arthur Schopenhauer may have held--and been to the only one I know of to have ever held-- position (2). Positions (1) and (3) have been held by many though. I heavily lean towards (1).

Of course now one has to define what 'intrinsic value'.

One answer, which I am quite convinced is the right one, is human happiness where happiness is defined as having a virtuous character and pleasurable mental states where by pleasurable I mean every mental state we like: joy, excitement, exhilaration, feelings of familial, friendship, and romantic love, and above all, general tranquility. Virtues are what aide in our attaining and keeping such mental states.

If you ask me 'why are these mental states good? why do they have intrinsic value?' I don't have an answer other than, 'values are what we have to have to live and what make life worth living' which is compatible with other positions besides mine. Explanation has to bottom out somewhere and that somewhere is brute facts about what ultimately is of value.

I hope that's informative.

argentfan

there is a discussion on the forum about how some wish to segregate the forum based on age. Actually having separate forums. Is it not the the point of a forum to diversify the view as much as healthily possible? I think that it is fine having old and you8ng alike.
Argent fan agrees, commenting on all the previous posters fear of perverts preying on the youth.

Yeah I noticed the same. I'm aware of the dangers surrounding them...
I don't particularly agree about the group splitting though.
It's healthy to have young folks around... at least that's what I feel.... and it's healthy for young people to have wiser folks around...
...and from what I've witnessed on this forum...minors are much more mature than many adults here....
Germán

The Sarah Brightman forum has a tendency to get in fights with each other a lot, the adults on there are often easily offended.

term papers

Why do i write these things? nobody actually cares what i have to say.