in response

in response to a recent internet Public service announcement. There has been a recent inspirational flash presentation called The Girl Effect. It is a great message about improving the world one person at a time. That is a great idea. But we must be careful who we choose to help. The girl spoken of in the video is driven to succeed. She has perseverance, and energy to achieve her aspirations. We must be sure that we are investing in those who will deliver, and cutting our losses with those who are failing with more basic tasks because of their laziness or self pity.

Moral: we can only do so much for people who are not willing to help themselves. If you find yourself putting so much effort into someone and they are not trying or not pushing them self; cut them off. You don't need to be dragged down and they might make it on their own better.

on a personal note:

I don't want to go to class today.

On hipsters

This is my blog, so I can bitch about whatever i want. Today's rant is about hipsters. Reasons Hipsters suck ass. But, if you want to be a non-conformist, here is a handy book to make sure you are non-conformist in the same way as the other non-conformists--> http://www.hipsterhandbook.com/

1. Male hipsters are femmie without being at all attractive. Don't believe me? I have never seen guy-liner look so bad, nor have man-metics looked so terrible before. Tight Jeans are simply skinny jeans hidden behind another word, and are still just as displeasing to look at. Nobody wants to see your nasty cock lump.

2. Female hipsters look a lot lie 12 year old boys, short hair, funny colors, and they seem to be outgrowing every article of clothing they own. And they look awkward in those outfits, not sexy.

3. They think they are the only ones that make real art. Radiohead is no more art than Puccini. Many argue otherwise, but I am not going to tell people what to listen to. Also, Pablo Picasso kicks that ass of anyone with black thick rimmed glasses.

4. Hipsters have ruined coffee and cafes. The only safe place is Panera Bread, and it is filled with lesbians now... I guess I will have to crawl back to my techno dance club...

5. Ever noticed how they all claim they are from New York? Some are, I am sure, but others have visited twice and act like they grew up there.

6. Hipsters pretend to be poor. Nothing is worse than having no money. Money gets you a lot of nice stuff. Hipsters always seem to have a lot of nice stuff but will always claim that they are “broke” or “strapped for cash.” Hipsters put on this act of being pseudo poor even though their parents are always willing to “help them out” should they need a little extra for rent or groceries. Being poor means you’re willing to take cans of food from someone, it isn’t not being able to buy that nice sweater from your favorite designer. The only designer poor people can afford are those with the tag “Sale” written on them. Poor people sometimes go hungry, hipsters will always have enough money to afford Chinese food from the corner by simply looking through their couches. This poor act isn’t moving anyone to tears. We don’t need to be fooled with this bullshit because it’s already an insult to the poor people hipsters already threw out by moving into apartments formerly rented by the poor. That “old style wood framing” wasn’t designed for hipsters to appreciate. It was there for the poor families who couldn’t afford to have the asbestos removed.

7. They are all lazy. Many people have to be up early in the morning. Them; not so much. They prefer to stay up late and then bitch about how tired they are while they answer the phones at the gallery.

I have saved the best for last
8. They are all dirty hypocrites. Hipsters are all about health. They will eat healthy as a two fold measure. One to protest against big business, and two, to piss off people. And when they engage in unhealthy activities, they claim to be at least healthy about it. For example: smoking. They all smoke American Spirit. The brand that claims to be “100% Chemical Free” contain more free-base nicotine than any other cigarette. Free base nicotine is basically a more potent but chemical free form of nicotine. You would have to be an idiot to fall for this type of douche-bag marketing. Just because the box comes in funky colors with a Native American doesn’t automatically make it any less dangerous. Most Hipsters wouldn’t even know that their precious American Spirits are owned by R.J. Reynolds (Big Tobacco). Suck down that bit of reality.

Hipsters. You make me sick

cleaned up

http://www.pastfoundation.org/

This a website. Welcome to the internet. Go buy something.
http://www.pastfoundation.org/Amazon.htm

all of it.

And if I could, I think I would trade it all.
All the pain and suffering. But then I'd miss the beauty of the light upon this earth and the sweetness in the leaving.

Moral: everything has a price. forgetting pain does not help us grow, it is in the learning from out difficulties that we better ourselves..

something sad

DDR2 RAM requiring 2.0 volts all put up in a row of three pulls really hard on a system's north bridge. So hard that you can only have a total of 4 banks of memory; that means only one DIMM can be double sided. This one, however, is able to handle twice the memory of the other two DIMM sockets. So, totalling 3 sticks hold 4 units of memory. This is why 2.0 volts can be handled on a unit like that. Now, if the north bridge is bumped up in voltage, it has enough force to make it through more than 4 banks, but risks burning out. I have my computer with 8 banks on four DIMMs, but the North bridge is set to 1.7 volts and the RAM is running at 1.9 Volts. That is not a mistake.
The point is, I have that ability to monitor and understand this. If it burns, or breaks i can fix it. For a computer built for someone else,I follow the rules.

On Tony

There is no question: Tony is back on my good side. There was an obvious reason that I disliked him. But as the old mongers say, "An enemy of my enemy is my friend". He and I have a common enemy. Given the current situation, I feel a great swell of pity for Page, given that her brother is now a missing person. Usually the ransom call comes in within 24 hours. Seeing as her father has a large amount of money, it makes sense. or he might have just run away. I personally feel it is the second one.
However, That is not the point of this post.
Tony is on my good side. Tony used to grate on my nerves, but now that, after the smoke has cleared, and all the chips have fallen. Page is not speaking to me, Sam is not speaking to me, but Tony is. I feel that it is ironic. Sam never cared for him either, but she lacked the spine to tell page. I understand, her friendship with page was not deep enough at that point to where she could say such a thing. Tony might have been one reason that Sam and I grew closer, the enemy of an enemy thing.
That is also not the point of this post.
Tony has returned on the scene, and I have been invited to his private climbing gym. This is a good thing. Guys are very different than girls, when two guys duke it out, they are friends afterwards. Girls are nasty...
The moral of this story: An enemy of my enemy is my friend.

movie

the long kiss goodnight

JackAss

Has anyone out there ever seen this movie? be honest. It is kinda funny. The idea of a bunch of guys doing stupid shit. that is enough to entertain me a little bit...
I like the tidal wave stunt.

road kill

The concept of dressing up road kill (I mean putting little hats and coats on it.) is nothing new. Some have done it for years, and no disease has come to them. I will leave it to the professionals... Dead things are not my forte.

Childhood

The best thing about my childhood is that I will never have to return to it. I have put a lot behind me. There are reasons why I grew up quickly.
But, now in retrospect, I am extremely happy to be done with my younger years. Nobody understood me ages 9 to 16. It wasn't till Chanel that i feel like people understood me. My parents thought they knew me, my friends were just extras in my life. and the psychologists! ha, what a joke...
Nope, I much prefer being a grown up.


Moral: Every teen feels like nobody understands them. I agree. You are a freak for at least 4 years of your life. Deal with it, and move on.

War on Drugs

Weil is open about his past use of illegal substances, claiming, "I think I've tried about every drug," in his book From Chocolate to Morphine. He is equally open with his views on ending the War on Drugs, citing the benefits of many banned plants. In fact, the opening paragraph of From Chocolate to Morphine reads: "Drugs are here to stay. History teaches that it is vain to hope that drugs will ever disappear and that any effort to eliminate them from society is doomed to failure." Weil claims that humans have an innate need to alter their consciousness, and that there is no such thing as good or bad drugs, merely that some individuals have good or bad relationships with certain substances.

interesting isn't it? there is a question about how much drugs hurt people. Caffeine, sleep aids, nicotine. There are tons of drugs out there. Every drug has been used and abused by somebody, and every drug has been responsibly used by someone. I am sure that even heroine has been responsibly used... probably. So what is so terrible about altering consciousness? It can make things prettier, or scarier, or god only knows what. But, I maintain that it is not bad if it is not hurting people.
Now when a drug does hurt people, then action needs to be taken. Family and friends need to help people who can't help themselves. Sometimes interventions are best.

thinking TOO far ahead

you know you're thinking too far into the future when you say to yourself, "but, if the rapture comes before I have the chance to--"
yep, I need to calm down.

HEY!! PAY ATTENTION TO ME!! I AMA GOOD PERSON!!!

Major Boobage!

We all know they're fake!
Save your money, it is not like a guy is going to say, "You know what? Your breasts are too small, I can't sleep with you. I'm going to go home alone." We just don't do that.
So, props to our girl Kira Knightly for being famous in Hollywood and having real breasts that are small.

UPS again

I love using UPS. They are so kind in their stores, and they understand that I could just as easily use Fed-ex or another carrier. I am having something delivered my store, which is closed until the 5. They tried to deliver a package, but the sign on the door said closed till the fifth. I checked the tracking and it says that they will redeliver on the 6th. Awesome.

Pride

Pride is the worst of all the deadly sins. A "selfless act" can destroy all the other deadly sins, but not pride. Pride is the one sin you can't beat. What that means is that there is not such thing as a selfless act to pride. Everything you do is to win, all good that you do is for the greater glory of yourself.

I suppose that is only true to a certain point. It still does good for others. Recently I entered into a conversation with a friend. WE discussed the idea that Microsoft is a bad company that does good things. She stood her ground that they are so evil to all ends, while I said that the 4.1 trillion dollars they have donated has done a lot of good. They might be doing it to further a good image, or create a good image, or hide a bad image. But it doesn't change the fact that they are helping people.
Now it is time to reverse. Rather than a selfish act doing good, let's examine a selfless act doing bad-- oh wait, that was my March '08. Not touching that with a ten foot pole.

yes, it is funny.

now this next one, however is a bit more amazing to me. It is actually a perfect example of classic surrealism AND formism. It is a great mixture of the two. The two faces independently are formism; as the jewels decorate them, and the hairline turns into a single form. The neck follows this same principle. the picture as a whole is surrealism, these three things are become on unified object. just as much surrealist work is praised for, this tattoo exemplifies uniformity and a sense of disjointedness.

music

C C D C
C B A
B C D
B B D
D C B

Alright, I'll bite.

Tools of our demise. their is an ancient idea that one must take what is his weakness and turn it into his sole desire. That basically translates into loving your flaws, and then using that to improve yourself and ultimately change for the better. Someone has taken the blog format and made it their own. The downfall, is the uprising. My downfall is not letting this go. I still believe that I am over it, now I am just evening the score a post for a post... yep, I probably should grow up.
I use this blog as a reflecting glass more than anything else. There is something about being able to read your own words, and knowing that others can read them as gospel.
Confused as to how these two fit together?
Let me bring you to a post that tells a story, well deeper story than any of my readers (save those who are my friends) know about.

Her blog
This is the post of a girl whom i used to live with. Things went sour for one reason... well, actually 6 reasons. However she and I only had control (together, as in we both controlled the situation) of only 1 of them. Of the others, she completely controlled one, while i completely controlled another 2.
I think it might interest you to read our posts right after the other. March is the month.

conrad says:

It also occurred to me that I never answered in more detail your question as why good is better than bad.

I said it was definitional and that's true. It's true because 'good' and 'bad' are value terms, they refer to what is valuable, specifically, 'good' refers to what is valuable and what ought to be valued whereas 'bad' refers to what should not be valued. Therefore,

If that seems like just some semantic juggling, the only way to not make it seem like that is to actually take a stance on what is valuable and thus give good and bad a bit more cash value.

There are three and only three positions one can take:

1) there are somethings that are of intrinsic value, we call something 'good' if it either is something that has intrinsic value or was act such that it produces more intrinsic value and we call something bad if it either destroys intrinsic value or prevents the formation of intrinsic value.

2) there are intrinsic evils and something is good if it destroys the intrinsic evils or prevents the formation of more intrinsic evils; bad is something that encourages the growth of more intrinsic evil or prevented the destruction of intrinsic evil

3) there are both intrinsic values and intrinsic evils

I think Arthur Schopenhauer may have held--and been to the only one I know of to have ever held-- position (2). Positions (1) and (3) have been held by many though. I heavily lean towards (1).

Of course now one has to define what 'intrinsic value'.

One answer, which I am quite convinced is the right one, is human happiness where happiness is defined as having a virtuous character and pleasurable mental states where by pleasurable I mean every mental state we like: joy, excitement, exhilaration, feelings of familial, friendship, and romantic love, and above all, general tranquility. Virtues are what aide in our attaining and keeping such mental states.

If you ask me 'why are these mental states good? why do they have intrinsic value?' I don't have an answer other than, 'values are what we have to have to live and what make life worth living' which is compatible with other positions besides mine. Explanation has to bottom out somewhere and that somewhere is brute facts about what ultimately is of value.

I hope that's informative.

argentfan

there is a discussion on the forum about how some wish to segregate the forum based on age. Actually having separate forums. Is it not the the point of a forum to diversify the view as much as healthily possible? I think that it is fine having old and you8ng alike.
Argent fan agrees, commenting on all the previous posters fear of perverts preying on the youth.

Yeah I noticed the same. I'm aware of the dangers surrounding them...
I don't particularly agree about the group splitting though.
It's healthy to have young folks around... at least that's what I feel.... and it's healthy for young people to have wiser folks around...
...and from what I've witnessed on this forum...minors are much more mature than many adults here....
Germán

The Sarah Brightman forum has a tendency to get in fights with each other a lot, the adults on there are often easily offended.

term papers

Why do i write these things? nobody actually cares what i have to say.

as the days go by

things change with time. the rules of the world change-- a lot. Belonging to a certain forum, which has recently had a change in layout, I have been able to completely ignore posts by certain individuals. Really there is only one that person who i feel it is better for me to not read his posts. Due to this, I choose not to have his posts displayed on my screen when I visit the forum. The reason behind this is that he always posts negative comments.
Today, in a thread started several years ago, I saw three new posts, because I bumped it up two days ago from over a year ago. Well, I saw that one of them was from this individual. I decided to enable the viewing of it. And of course, it was a comment that did not pertain to the discussion, it was simply warning me about not discussing such controversial subjects, such as gay identity.

in my heart

There exists... hatred.

couldn't have happened at a worse time

Guess what is plaguing me? Christmas shopping. Due to recent theatrical occurrences, I find myself with a rather large credit card bill, mostly because I had to take so much time off of work. Other expenses arose, and a long story made short: I am now wondering why Christmas is so expensive. I just don't know. I think that I will be ebaying a lot this year. I have ed's present all figured out, --
sorry, I realize that nobody actually wants read read all that crap.
I suppose the moral of the story is that as we humans ride this earth around the sun, we are bound by time. Due dates, holidays, rent, and 3 meals a day. All rule out lives.
Are you getting what I am saying? If we don't plan for these things, they are going to bite us in the ass.

hmmm

A faggot is a gay gentleman who has just left the room.
Sad, isn't it.

classes

I have the worst class schedule ever...

Quotes:

You can Laugh or you can cry, but you can't ignore it.

Friendship often blooms into Love, but love into friendship is a withering flower.

Comedy is comedy, and Tragedy: Tragedy. never the tween shall meet.

Now, I actually wrote one of these. But all are credited to minds greater than my own. Two credited to Shakespeare, one credited to some Machiavelli. Can you guess which it is?

gauntlet thrown down

And, I'm done being so nice. I see all the crap that your putting up,and it might work on others. But ti it not going to work on me. I am done trying to care, and now I don't.

To Tyler

My advice to you, dear, is not to skip friday morning classes to cheer on that little swimmer boyfriend of yours.

http://www.opentopia.com/images/cams/world_sunlight_map_rectangular.jpg

sounds fun

I think I would like to honk and wave at random strangers to see if they will pretend to know me.

bummer

I hate it when a long lost friend turns out to be a douchebag.

***

snap. into your folder, with your name.

try

I have decided to try.
Moral: Take a risk, especially if you have nothing to loose. Why just wait around and hope that good things happen. Try hard, and hope for the best. Aim for the best results, and cross your fingers.

pangea

you all know that his blog is not really about me. Well, it is, but it is about the readers. Point is, I saw this play, Pangea, at the Drake. it was pretty decent. The Dispatch didnt care for it. Conrad is coming around to liking it, I enjoyed it, becaseu I had more incite into it, having spoken to the dramatic team. Josh, he enjoyed the science of it.

Government

Something amazing happened yesterday: I saw a banner add on a download site. I own a video game and a PlayStation (the legend of dragoon), however I wish to play the game on my computer. So, I downloaded an emulator and wish to use an ISO file rather than the original game disks (i hate load times). I found a copy of the disk as an ISO image on a website that hosts these illegal files. It is not illegal for me to download the game, because I own the actual Cd's. But many people are downloading illegally. Guess who the banner ad was?
The US Army.

Beer I like

In no specific order:
Heineken
Fosters
Sithwicks
other bitter things...

the room

when I was younger, actually when I was in second grade (7 or 8), there was a room that I used to often find myself in. I never knew why I was there, just that i was supposed to go there once a week, sometimes twice. In retrospect, I still am not sure why I was there. It wasn't a gifted class or anything like that, I think t might have something to do with my parents divorce. I never really asked. I just assume that based on the timing. I never really fully addressed this issue, my parents divorce, and its affects on me. I am a pretty well balanced person, really, I am... until I was in my junior year of high school I was seeing a counselor about it, but that was mostly just out of habit.
I am once again seeing a councilor, but for different reasons...

run on

you might run on for a long time
run on, ducking and dodging
run on, children, for a long time
let me tell you God Almighty gonna cut you down

art

I recently found myself on facebook, and wandering through my art i posted. I used to be artistic in a different way. IN a way that you can't really touch. Now everything is way more real and More tangible. It is great to look back and see how much you have grown. My advice to everyone is to occasionally look back at their lives and to see how they have changed, but be aware that it isn't all good. Somethings you see are not going to make you smile. But hopefully those are far between.

Ta da Tyrael

Here is it.

The armor is complete

The armor is done, now all that have to do is to put the pieces together...

huh?

If you go to a bank and pay off the loan that a company has with the bank, do you own the club?

Charming, isn't it?

I feel pretty oh so pretty...
but seriously-- I am about to scream.
SCREAM! now I am watching Charmed.

feel better now

I feel a great deal better now that i have picked some dates for hanging, focusing, and programing. Pheww...

the revolution will not be televised

The above video documents the overthrow of a President by the rich sector of a population. It is funny how this small group of people could do such a huge thing. We hear of small groups doing massive things, and we hope that it is a great victory towards humanity. But the reality is far less romantic, especially in this case. These people stepped on their "fellow" citizens for oil money. Kinda funny how oil is always at the bottom of these problems. I believe that I live in a country that I should not have to worry about this, a coup d'etate. But you never know.
The most frightening of all aspects of this video is the media. There is no such thing as an unbiased media in this country. Apparently there is 5 companies that own all the media, and they control the flow of information. The reason this is so dangerous is due the fact that US citizens live in democracy were we assume that there si a free flow of information. not so much.

guitar QUEERO

Yep, i am one of those people. I just beat easy mode, and I am off to medium mode. It only took 2 months! keep in mind that i only play it at josh's house and that I spent a lot of the time playing with him, especially in the beginning. My poor little pinkie.
Mark doesn't care for video games, josh only cares because i do, and my mom is hopelessly lost with a controller in her hands. I had her over a while ago to play it and for dinner, it went well. But she didn't do to well at the game.

moral: if you play hard, you'll get better. Play too hard and your little pinkie will hurt...

Channeling emotion

In west side story, there is a brief moment were the reason the boys must fight is explained, it is too get rid of all the extra feeling they feel, and once they rumble they feel so healthy. Odd.
In my life, I am confronted with many tasks, most of the ones for school are not very therapeutic, so I found myself making armor today. Interesting.
I need to buy a serious amount of Elmer's glue today, I need it for my armor. But, I think it is going to look great.
I will soon have the spray paint for the sword, that will take a day to spray, then the next day I will detail it. Then the sword will be done.
The wings are out of my hands, so I can only trust they will be done on time.
The armor is my biggest challenge.

baby elephant walk

I can always depend on a few things to cheer me up. Music is a great thing. One song that I can't ever make it through without whistling along is "Baby Elephant Walk" by Mancini.
I made some art today. Like all the other emo people do when they are sad. Although I am not emo, I am just sensitive. Yes, some of you might be asking what is the difference? Simple answer, emo kids have more money than I do. Seriously, all that emo gear is not cheap.
I am going out tonight, with josh. Then tomorrow I begin with my counseling and then classes. Things are working in circles, slow circles.
Think hard about that.

Privee

information is power. You don't deserve it, as a reader, you get information in a Plato-kinda way. Plato had this idea about stuff being a copy of some original.

Photogenic

You know what makes people photogenic? It is depth. Humans can see depth, because they have two eyes. But a camera only sees from one angle, with one eye. It is this difference that makes people photgenic or not.

The forum

I am back on the forum, and it is funny the stuff that comes up on a private forum. People will say things that they wouldn't say on a public forum.

Looking over a weary shoulder, counting the sunsets this midsummers day, my mind wandered. Missed opportunities, lost loves, turning points in ones life, different goals, I pondered how many times, and with how many different people I'd fallen in love with.

Yes, I believe you can fall in love with more than one person in a lifetime, real love, that carries obsessional and passionate thougts and feelings, caring and thoughtful, really in love.

I thought, and counted six people I'd fallen in love with, some interupted by tragedy, others by my stupidity, and youthful foolishness, wanderlust and immaturity. I did in fact miss opportunities for love, and yes I fell in love with more than one person at the same time. I think that this is natural, and can happen to anyone,,,,,,,?

Discontented by the thought of monogomy,,,,,,no. I wanted marriage, and no, not a polygamy by nature fanatic, just a bunch of circumstances, that deprived me of experiences some people in my age group share w/one person for a lifetime.

Do people fall in love with more than one person in a lifetime, and is it possible to truly be in love with more than one person at one time. I think yes, I was wondering what you thought,,,,,,,

Jerry C.

I am not one to love, especially to admit that I might love. I none the less answered his post with one of my own.
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Turok

Turok is broken! Now what am I supposed to shoot at?

Too Far

I dug too deep recently. You can see the post about it below someplace. I suppose that in retrospect, the beauty of the situation is that I am more of an island than I ever intended. I crave social interaction. That will be my downfall. I have taken extreme measures to find out what I know. And it has cost me. More my integrity than anything else.
I arte requestare un amigo a put elle occupado en elle linne. Caused matto dmittare a mia reputino, e tatte a marnea sippe.
I just wish it could go away. You have no idea what I would give for it to just... be gone.

Figlio Perduto

There is a legend of a lost child in the woods. Separated from a human father and taken away by a Elvin king.

This song was put into an operatic piece, and used as the theme for the Movie "The Fall". It plays once at the beginning of the movie and once at the end.
So sad...
The movie is amazing and beautiful.

Chalk on the wall, dirt under the nails

I have seena lot of things in my life, I mena more than the average 22 year old white male. Many 22 year olds are more experienced in certain things, less in other things (which I happen to excel in).
I suppose that I should be more to the point. because of what I do in my life, I have access to a lot of information. And information is power. I have hunted down and scoped out more information as of late. And i know something that I didn't want to see.

I needed to STOP DIGGING AROUND! I knew I might not like what I found. I should have just backed off, and stopped asking questions. I was getting close to a secret that I couldn't handle. Should have let it go.


I just couldn't let it go.

would not come

If I am masculine I will be taken more seriously
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
If I'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
And Still it would not come
--Alanis Morissette

Up so early.

I believe the below says it all.

In my Fantasy

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo giusto,
Li tutti vivono in pace e in onestà.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo chiaro,
Li anche la notte è meno oscura.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano.
Pien' d'umanità.

Nella fantasia esiste un vento caldo,
Che soffia sulle città, come amico.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Dangerous, again

I am returning to facebook. For there is no longer anything hiding from me. The guilty party has come forward. And Will be accepting punishment sometime down the road. Hopefully sooner than later.

Dangerous...

Facebook is dangerous. I am going to go dormant for a while. Please don't' think that this has anything to do with any third party personnel, it is an internal thing. Ask details if you must, but I am sure that when someone omits certain information... they are guilty of crimes most heinous.
I suppose that the lesson to be learned here is that sometimes silence speaks louder than words can. Just repeat that slowly, it isn't as lame as it sounds.

early again

I am back to waking up at 6 or 7 in the morning to do classwork... yippee.

Oedipus Tyrannos

This is probably my new second favorite play of all time. It is really good. I mean the plot line sounds boring and crappy, but once you read it, it all meshes together so well. Anyway... good play, all should read it.
Moral: there is a reason why certain things are classics and are still being read today...

the things we do

I cannot believe I am actually going to see a professional about my lack of lust... This sucks...

Edit: But, whatever... at least you know i am trying. I think that counts for something. I know your trying really hard too. And I understand that your attempts are pretty much at my request. So this is the least I owe you.

OK, but seriously

What does it take to get an A in this class...
I am not going to kiss anymore ass right now. I already have a mouth full of ass from my Censorship class...
Sign Language is going to be far more difficult that I anticipated, also. So lord help me...

Eagle Eye

A fun film with little merit if you have more than half a brain and can see futurism where creators and directors failed to realize what they were making. The film itself is a great time, lots of stuff exploding and it has "my boy" in it as the lead. josh knows who I mean. Anyway. The reason why I decide to post this tonight basically boils down to: fate brings people together. I saw a couple tonight at work who met in line for coffee. They are only dating, but you never know if they will make it all the way to gettin' hitched.
In the movie, the two lead characters are not brought together by fate, but by a crazy computer that controls almost everything. In the end they become close(?) friends.
Moral of the story: I am tired and don't want to write my paper.
Moral of that addition: Never be surprised if what you are reading looks like it might hold some merit, but is nothing more than mindless dribble.

C_hange_s

I am upgrading to vista.
From there. I will not install Boinc. I will test each part in this order.
Removal of Raid_1 for primary HDD, converted into a single Hard disk that will have a c:/Feresh files folder. Not a partition.
I will move my audio card down so that I am sure it receives enough airflow.
I can expect all this to cut the power requirements by 40 watts.
Everything will be set to default, and I will not be overclocking for a few weeks.
Motherboard monitor 5, is all that i will using for monitoring my computer. Process explorer is probably not going to happen...
But I just don't understand.

vista

this is how vista works: oem sales are based on a one time install... or at least a one motherboard install. in order to get around that, you must claim that it is a replacement based on a warranty.

Mysteries of the Organism

it's impressionism.

Begin the tests

I have made it through the night. I will start up trillian again. I will also be runing the indexer, as that is very unlikely to cause the freeze.

The hardest part

The most difficult of things that I have had to do recently would be to maintain my cool. I have been having trouble with my computer. And it seems that I have possibly found the solution... it can only be a few things: or so I feel. I will be testing them in this order: Trillian, the index engine of my computer, a osi drive emulator, Boinc, process explorer, a ram monitor, and a temperature monitor. Most likely it is the Boinc or the iso emulator...

Moral of the story: If you must suffer, and most suffer alone, at least try and strategically end your suffering. Do it in a calm way that will result in the least amount of damage, be swift and do not drag it all out.

people

The exact reason for the ticking of people is a mystery to me. I don't pretend to know who everyone around me is. Of course I know a bit about all of them, but none of them do I understand completely. For example there are three people that have recently started to visit me at work very often.
The first is an old friend who has recently returned to America. Little has changed between she and I, and that is good.
The second is a gentleman who has come to the store for quite some time. Things have recently become different when I saw another side of him, outside of his mother and father.
The third is a new face, who I am still very confused about. The funniest thing is, I know so little about any of them, especially this last one.
I mean I know what they do for a living and all that, and I know a great deal about there dietary habits, even outside of ice cream. But they are still almost strangers to me.
Moral: People will always show you anew face if you let them. Brush of the unpleasant details and get to the heart of the person, from here you can decide where you fall.

not again...

Ann killed another computer...

Seth Mcfarlane

Seriously, he is hot. I might do him. I suppose it is because he is so odd... or because he voices a character that drinks about as intolerably as I do. I relate best with the character of Brian. And since my brain works on a very transitive basis, I have grown to approve of Seth. Tada!
... But seriously, he is fuckin hot.

Fighting on the internet is like running in the Special Olympics, even if you win your still retarded.

F.E.A.R. Extraction Point

not really too scary, but what can one expect from the second instalment of a game. The third chapter should be amazing.

Wires

14 Gauge galvanized aluminium wire is what I need for my wings. got it.

on the last post

The last post is why I don't have pets, they always up and die...
just kidding...

Meadowlark

When I was a boy, I had a favourite story
Of the meadowlark who lived where the rivers wind
Her voice could match the angels' in its glory,
But she was blind,
The lark was blind.

the king of the rivers took her to his palace,
Where the walls were burnished bronze and golden braid,
And he fed her fruit and nuts from an ivory chalice and he prayed


"Sing for me, my meadowlark
Sing for me of the silver morning.
Set me free, my meadowlark
And I'll buy you a priceless jewel,
And cloth of brocade and crewel,
And I'll love you for life if you will
Sing for me."


Than one day as the lark sang by the water
The god of the sun heard her in his flight
And her singing moved him so, he came and brought her
The gift of sight,
He gave her sight.
And she opened her eyes to the shimmer and the splendour
Of this beautiful young god, so proud and strong
And he called to the lark in a voice both rough and tender,
"Come along,


Fly with me, my meadowlark,
Fly with me on the silver morning.
Past the sea where the dolphins bark,
We will dance on the coral beaches,
Make a feast of the plums and peaches,
Just as far as your vision reaches,
Fly with me."


But the meadowlark said no,
For the old king loved her so,
She couldn't bear to wound his pride.
So the sun god flew away and when the king came down that day,
He found his meadowlark had died.
Every time I heard that part I cried.


And now I stand here, starry-eyed and stormy.
Oh, just when I thought my heart was finally numb,
A beautiful young man appears before me
Singing "Come
Oh, won't you come?"
And what can I do if finally for the first time
The one I'm burning for returns the glow?
If love has come at last it's picked the worst time
Still I know
I've got to go.


Fly away, meadowlark.
Fly away in the silver morning.
If I stay, I'll grow to curse the dark,
So it's off where the days won't bind me.
I know I leave wounds behind me,
But I won't let tomorrow find me
Back this way.


Before my past once again can blind me,
Fly away.


And we won't wait to say goodbye,
My beautiful young man and I.

select few

Gepoon deppen, totte le flame mutol. Non ette balere. Seme me gormisimo e potulaisimo con tumi. Forever Again. Wish I could learn something from these experiences: I hate them all.

really?

is .2 gHz worth 200 bones? I don't think so. Same cache, same FSB, but $200 more for .17 Ghz faster. I can overclock that for free...

Slow Motion Lightning @ Yahoo! Video

Boo Radley

Neighbors bring food with death, flowers with sickness, and little things in between. Boo was our neighbor, he gave us two soap dolls, a broken watch and chain, a knife, and our lives.

regrets

I woke alone in the woods, but I felt that i was with company. I hurried this way and that, but I knew they were still with me where ever I went. And I had the taste of blood and chocolate in my mouth, one as sweet as the other.

pooh bear

Should you live for 100 years more, I hope i live for 100 years minus a day, so that i never have to live without you.

living ona dream

It is amazing what people can do, as far as allowing themselves to keep hope. Hoping that somewhere out there,there is someone still loving them. I am referring to a couple that i know, on opposite sides of the world. They have maintained a love for so long, and the time for them to be rejoined is coming closer. I congratulate them.

3/19/07

that was the last time the rainbow puke website was updated... so I have little hope of my rainbow art making it online.

http://librivox.org/

http://librivox.org/ is a website where you can download a ton of audiobooks. It really is pretty cool.

blackberrys

what the heck? these phones are very similar, josh... but in my opinion you should go with the 8330-- for two reasons. First, you already have the case... and secondly, stereo bluetooth and headphone jack. Sounds like a good combo to me.
Now, what about your old phone? if Wendys is only allowing you to use the new phone for work, then you you will have two of the exact same phone... that might get confusing. So if that is the case, you should get the 8830.

Recommended:
Serebro - Song.1

AIDS sucks...

Or should I say that it blows?

seriouskly

There are a lot of famous people in this skit. That just proves that everyone must have a silly side: Brad Pitt, Harrison Ford, Cameron Diaz, Joan Jett, Macy Gray, Robin Williams, Don Cheadle, Pete Wentz, Perry Farrell, Benji and Joel Madden, Lance Bass, Huey Lewis, Josh Groban, McLovin, Meatloaf, and former announcer and Mighty Mighty Bosstones frontman Dicky Barrett.

See more funny videos at Funny or Die

dam!!

See more Paris Hilton videos at Funny or Die

I feel kinda bad

I feel kinda bad about something. I am not going to tell you what it is, that is not the point of this post. I am posting tonight to state that there is plenty for me to feel bad about. Certain people, should they read this, will think certain things while others think it is about a completely different thing. I am not a bad person, I just make mistakes. But I take the fall for my own behavior, I am not one to push blame onto others, just as it is rare for me to take the blame for others. So, if anyone is reading this, and feels like I have something to feel bad about; tell me. But please, keep it to things where i have wronged you, not others.

On New York

I went out to New York this past week. 90% of the time i was not in the air conditioning. It was really hot there, and I was drinking about 3 liters of water each day, usually about a liter and a half while out walking, a liter throughout the night, because it was so hot, and the rest with meals. I was very lucky to have this time with my family, but it is nice to be back. I need to work my tail off to not stay in the black.