Zoo!!

So, we went to the zoo today. It was lovely. Sam, Matt and myself all went. Sam had a coupon, so we got in for half price. When we went in, we had a great time. It seems that the most amazing for Matt were the fish. I think that is-- well I don't know, but I guess it is interesting. He seemed extremely fascinated by one fish in particular. And his cause was not because it was beautiful. It was actually because he found it ugly. it had a antenna on it's head and it reminded him of an Edsel (sp?). I am not surprised by the fact that it is was the ugliest. That is very Matt of him to choose that one.
Oh, and Sam liked the monkeys. I liked the lion. I am not sure why.

classes

Birth Certificate

SO, I need a new copy of my birth certifificate. Not a big deal, actually a very small deal. I have neo dead line, and all I have to do is go to

Ohio Department of Health
Vital Statistics
225 Neilston Street (Walk-in service)
Columbus, Ohio 43215
Phone: (614) 466-2531
9 a.m. to 3 p.m.

you know

I am just so sick of people cancelling plans. I am tired of it. I am going to start cancelling. I started today.

P.S.

Oh, and I solved the mystery of the missing towel... but I am not going to tell you where it was... The nose knows.

R

I have had an interesting reaction to my current situation. A little background: I am forced to be surrounded by someone who makes me want to rip my face off. He is no better than I, and in fact, there are so many ways that I blow him out of the water. I am not going to be cocky enough to say that he hasn't gotten me beat in some aspects, but I am sure that there is a major difference in the quality of the persons herein mentioned. I care about people, as all people care about fellow human beings. And regardless of my cares for the life of my "enemies" i find this particular gentleman grinding on my last nerve. I do not write to entertain, I mainly write to help myself discover the truth about a situation, and the more I examine the situation, the less I feel I should have to be around person R. Now, I do realize that i benefit from having him around. i have to do less work to accomplish the same tasks with or without him. So, it isn't bad having him around to do some of the work, but that is no reason for him to feel that he can walk all over my pride and personal fortitude.
I never got to see his application, but I know that he looks good on paper, he has experience and all that. He knows what he is doing in life in general, and he has a long list of work history, but, that doesn't mean that he is a good person. or the right person for the job... that is the best way I have said it, "I am [not even] sure he is a good person, just not the right guy for the job." I think we need to get rid of him. And most people that I talk to agree.
But I must admit, I have gained from this person. I have definitely taken more from the relationship (can you call it that?) than he has. that makes me a interesting person. It is not that I am maliciously using him, but i have allowed him to give of himself. So, i help him be a better person... interesting how I can turn anything any way I want...

bobble head

So I am watching my bobble head Edgar Poe. It is nice. That is all.

http://doyourememberlove.com

This video sucks. Some probably would like it. But I just got yelled at on the forum for commenting that i remember love... and that it wasn't a dog.

I know that love is blind.
And that it is forgiving.
And that love will conquer all.
That Love is all inclusive.
Love can't be stopped.
It is timeless.
Love takes the strong and brings them to their knees.
It is a force that shouldn't be reckoned with, and can't be beaten.
It is the reason people do that crazy things they do.

that was my post, and I posted before i watched the video. (i was not in a place to watch it.)

Now that I have seen it, I say it sucks.

Page would provably like the video, but I know that she understands that people are more important than dogs.

Why I am better than you

Not you, but some people. I have realized something. i have pictures on face book that are of me and of others. duh. But others only have pictures of them doing things that pertain to their major. They have friends, but only friends that are in their department, therefore am not my friend, even if we are in the same department. I am speaking about A certain theatre student. This person goes to every single cast party and ever single show that OSU touches. and it is because of this that so many think she has a booming social life, myself included until recently. but then I realized that she will be one of those people that is so alive right now, but then just a creepy person after that. I on the other hand have been making connections with real people that are outside of this university. Dome are theatre people, like John of LDT. while others are real people like ice cream makers. This girl even works in the theatre department. She will be so very lost come graduation.

Rock DJ

Robbie Williams id very good in this video. I Must say, it isn't just because he is hot and naked. He is silly, sort of. He actually does something amazing; he dances really well. REALLY WELL. Look at it, there is no sign of choreography. Amazing.

opera

this short hits every aspect of opera. Even the last words by bugs bunny.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D74Bk3uvGj4

Donations

I like me. I think I am talented. I lit a prom this weekend, it was nice. Nothing burnt out or blew up. End of story.

What?

I am so tired, I don't know why. It is just that I am exhausted. maybe I should just go to sleep. I think i will. I am supposed to wait for Matt, but I just can't make it. I am going to send him a message to tell him to let himself in and just come up stairs,. Nadine isn't here so she won't bark.

what's the difference?

I am currently in the computer lab at school and I just witnessed a normality. There was a knock on the door that all the people ignored. The door has a security card reader so that only authorized people can enter the lab. You swipe your buckeye D to gain entrance. SO, nobody moved. Then the only grad student in the whole lab gets up to open the door, bitching about how you are supposed to bring your buckeye D to use the lab. Then he opens the door and it is another grad student. He doesn't say a word.

I know this sounds trivial, but it is a a constant theme of this drama department. The grad students think they are better than the undergrads. I can't stand it. Not because I am an undergrad, but because I am a decent person. I treat everyone with equal ideals.

Moral: if you are going to trash someone, at least make sure they are who you think they are... What? Did you think I was going to say something nice about loving all people?

let the poison out.

I know that is strange title. But I feel that it is accurate. i have a lot of bad things going on in my life at this exact moment. i mean professionally and emotionally. I have no choice but to let it all bleed out of me. I am afraid for my friends. I am afraid for my loved ones, and I am afraid that I will never get the chance to make them feel better. I mean I can make them feel better, but I can't fix their problems. Perhaps this can be linked to my earlier philosophy that they a re their problems, they must deal with them. I hate to leave them on the sidelines, but I have no choice.

Rough time at work

I worked today, and for once Denise wasn't on my back. But I had to deal with shit from one of my coworkers. I am ok with that, but i just feel like I handled the situation poorly. I did nothing wrong, but I am not sure...

New outlooks bring discoveries

A friend of mine had a mental break down today, I did not witness anything, but I imagine it must have been pretty rough. The beautiful thing is that this has brought on a new idea of self belief. The words that stuck with me after I stood up from the couch where this: "don't fucking shit on my confidence, bitch!" Although they were not spoken by her, they were for her. Let me rephrase that, she was told them in order to help cheer up by a friend. Now. This lead into a conversation where both parties discovered that they are pretty much good people. That has always been obvious to me. But it is very different to see that for yourself. It is good.

Moral: Remember, you are your best ally.

I wrote about needing time 15 days ago.. guess I fail.

My matt free night

my Matt free night was a complete failure. I supposedly was supposed to hang with Matt tonight, I don't remember agreeing to it, but it sounds like something i would agree to. Anyway, I get a text message with him bitching about being alone and I am not in the mood for this, especially because I just am not. After a long phone conversation I feel like we have made no progress towards anything, mainly because we weren't talking about anything. just a lot of nothing. SO, Matt is pissed off (because I forgot and am not about to sacrifice myself at an alter out of regret and sorry-ness), I am pissed off because I have gotten the worst parts of Matt not being here (his sadness and the empty spot in bed), and now i have to wait for my phone to charge before I go to bed.
This sucks. I am alone and pissed off, and Matt is alone and sad. I realize something.
Matt puts more effort into the relationship, but he is a lot more dependant on it, so it works out. I am sure he will read this, and later I will regret writing it, but to dam bad. I am pissed, and i shouldn't post when I am pissed.

I decided not to go to class today

I stayed in bed. It was lovely. I really didn't want to go to my movement class. And then i realized that i probably wouldn't die for not going to my Italian class either. SO instead I stayed home and played a video game. It was a welcome change from being mentally sculpted all day long.