Damage pottential

I find it funny how badly people can break things. I have no idea, well at least not an absolute idea, of what is wrong with Ann's computer. I think it is the button on the front, others are clueless as well. But the funny thing is, I am halfway on the way to fixing it. I am not halfway there, just halfway on the way.

hiding behind a smile

I just posted on the OS something very inflammatory. Basically I said that since more people die from falls than from war, liberals should replace their anti-war stickers with anti skyscraper stickers. But I am safe, I put two smileys int he message.

Mark Curls

hahah! Love it. This is the guy that helped my ass sober up a while ago. I am sure that i blogged about it previously, but I can't remember when. So, I talked to him this weekend and we exchanged number again. Well, turns out that he and I had a lovely conversation tonight. Lovely. He is a great guy. I will have to fuck him--
just kidding.

not a cry... not somebody's who's seen the light.

I will admit that i have made mistakes, and that many people have suffered because of them, but none more than myself. That is not meant to sound cocky, but it is the truth. I take responsibility for my actions, and my success. I stood on the shoulders of giants once, and it was scary, but I made it. I thank them for that, but that was not good enough. But when I fall, it is epic failure that is soley mine to bare. Ia m alone in the end.

There is a contradicting idea out there, about death, none the less. One side says that no creature dies alone, as we are all with god in that moment. and the opposing says that everything must die by itself, being understood by none.

magick chord

hallelujah.
faith was strong, but needed proof.
beauty in the moonlight, tied me to the kitchen chair, and from my lips drew the hallelujah.
I've been here before, used to live alone before i knew you. love is not a victory march, cold and broken hallelujah.
Let me know what's real and going on. Remember when I moved in you, every breath we drew was hallelujah.
t6here's a God above and all we learned from love was a cry you can hear, not somebody who has seen the light.

Guy at Axis IV

Back on January 29th I wrote about a guy named Joel Field. He was wearing blue underwear. I saw him at pride at Axis this weekend, wearing black underwear with a blue stripe. That is all...

texts...

what does it mean if someone texts you, telling you that they just left the gym?

the bleeding

When I get stressed out... The blood just comes.

dissapointed

I can't believe that a friend I haven't spoken to on the phone in over half a year has chosen to masturbate rather than answer my phone call. And then he tells me to hold on till he finishes.

not so far away

This stripper guy wanted me. Or at least wanted my money, till i called him out on being on the payroll.
I suppose I should be complimented? Or maybe not. It was rather interesting how it happened, mostly because there was an immediate destruction of the illusion. But he was nice enough. And one thing I learned that night, is that being nice to people does pay off. It paid off as soon as I got to axis.

I don't want to divulge any more details, because it is just going to make me sound trashy, but my closing thought is this:

Don't be rude to someone just because they are ugly. Often times "ugly" people are just as nice as everyone else. And also, don't be mean to hot people, often times hot people are just as nice as everyone else.

mark is right

he is correct. Pride and Comfest should not be on the same weekend. Naturally you would expect the larger event to take priority. But, pride is the same weekend nationally, Comfest is a Columbus thing. So, should Comfest move for pride or vise-versa? Mark feels that Pride, since national, should take priority. Most straight people feel Comfest should. Does Mark feel this because of him being gay? or does he genuinely feel that Pride is a national phenomena?

Reflection on the system

The system works. it has worked for years and years and years. But it changes the people involved. Suddenly they are all hard... little pieces of them have died inside. as they hurt in and out, scratching out the days on the wall.

odd bag of emotions (at 2:30 am)

I try to not be pissed.
But, realizing that i have no right to be. And it all makes sense. I see what you have been hiding from me for so long. That you lied and hid it from me for months, and then kept cloaked in vagueness until yesterday. You still haven't told me, because you don't think I should know, I found out all by myself and hundreds of miles didn't hide it any better than 5 blocks would have. But, do not think that I am going to hold you up longer. I shall let you float... so very gently away.

But, I can not keep you from calling back to me. I am not sure how I will respond, with anger or with love. Foe now; this explains silence. For future, I tell you lovingly to fuck off.

Turok

It is way harder to kill dinosaurs when you are drunk. I swear, didn't think that martini(s) had that much of a punch.

so popular...

i have given two interviews over the past week, one appeared on national news (Fox news) and the other is a podcast for Columbus food. The funny thing is, and I am realizing this now, the interviewers completely changed what i said to make me fit their story/motive. They original dialogue is so horribly chopped and hacked up that it makes me sound like I have a completely different motive.
So, my advice, decline to be interviewed.

skip to 14 mins for my interview.

http://columbusfood.libsyn.com/index.php?post_id=349089

Odd to admit this...

but that Miley Cyrus has a half decent voice. I say half decent because I assume that there is a lot of audio FX going on with the music...
But that song "See You Again" isn't bad. At least the remixes I hear.

interesting comparison

That is so Gay!
That is so Black!

One of these is perfectly acceptable, the other will get you kicked in the teeth.

GAYS IN THE MILITARY

I don't think that gays should have to serve in the military. Women should be drafted before gays, because the heads of the country do more to support them. The guys signing the war papers support women more than they support gay men. Don't believe me?
What freedoms to gays have than women don't? I am only going to discuss the one that is on my mind now, I am sure I could come up with others if this did not preoccupy me so. Marriage.
Straight guys bitch about how if they have to die for their country, they should be able to buy a six pack for their country-- this complaint only lasts for three years, between ages 18 when they are eligible for draft and 21 when they can buy alcohol. Gay men have can complain for 8 years, until they are 26 and ineligible for the draft. But, they still complain afterward... because their problem still exists.

Veritus Clatta

Anche depo il Combitteroa. Sees intersting, ma, tia blet cept itss.

Noodle!

I saw a noodle today. She was very warm from the walk, but I gave her some ice cream and she was very happy to see me. I knew right away that she recognized me. But the funny thing is, she would not listen to Kate when Kate wanted her to go. But all it took was me guiding her up/out of the corner to send her on her way. Funny how dogs can remember you after a long(ish) time.