bummer

I hate it when a long lost friend turns out to be a douchebag.

***

snap. into your folder, with your name.

try

I have decided to try.
Moral: Take a risk, especially if you have nothing to loose. Why just wait around and hope that good things happen. Try hard, and hope for the best. Aim for the best results, and cross your fingers.

pangea

you all know that his blog is not really about me. Well, it is, but it is about the readers. Point is, I saw this play, Pangea, at the Drake. it was pretty decent. The Dispatch didnt care for it. Conrad is coming around to liking it, I enjoyed it, becaseu I had more incite into it, having spoken to the dramatic team. Josh, he enjoyed the science of it.

Government

Something amazing happened yesterday: I saw a banner add on a download site. I own a video game and a PlayStation (the legend of dragoon), however I wish to play the game on my computer. So, I downloaded an emulator and wish to use an ISO file rather than the original game disks (i hate load times). I found a copy of the disk as an ISO image on a website that hosts these illegal files. It is not illegal for me to download the game, because I own the actual Cd's. But many people are downloading illegally. Guess who the banner ad was?
The US Army.

Beer I like

In no specific order:
Heineken
Fosters
Sithwicks
other bitter things...

the room

when I was younger, actually when I was in second grade (7 or 8), there was a room that I used to often find myself in. I never knew why I was there, just that i was supposed to go there once a week, sometimes twice. In retrospect, I still am not sure why I was there. It wasn't a gifted class or anything like that, I think t might have something to do with my parents divorce. I never really asked. I just assume that based on the timing. I never really fully addressed this issue, my parents divorce, and its affects on me. I am a pretty well balanced person, really, I am... until I was in my junior year of high school I was seeing a counselor about it, but that was mostly just out of habit.
I am once again seeing a councilor, but for different reasons...

run on

you might run on for a long time
run on, ducking and dodging
run on, children, for a long time
let me tell you God Almighty gonna cut you down

art

I recently found myself on facebook, and wandering through my art i posted. I used to be artistic in a different way. IN a way that you can't really touch. Now everything is way more real and More tangible. It is great to look back and see how much you have grown. My advice to everyone is to occasionally look back at their lives and to see how they have changed, but be aware that it isn't all good. Somethings you see are not going to make you smile. But hopefully those are far between.

Ta da Tyrael

Here is it.

The armor is complete

The armor is done, now all that have to do is to put the pieces together...

huh?

If you go to a bank and pay off the loan that a company has with the bank, do you own the club?

Charming, isn't it?

I feel pretty oh so pretty...
but seriously-- I am about to scream.
SCREAM! now I am watching Charmed.

feel better now

I feel a great deal better now that i have picked some dates for hanging, focusing, and programing. Pheww...

the revolution will not be televised

The above video documents the overthrow of a President by the rich sector of a population. It is funny how this small group of people could do such a huge thing. We hear of small groups doing massive things, and we hope that it is a great victory towards humanity. But the reality is far less romantic, especially in this case. These people stepped on their "fellow" citizens for oil money. Kinda funny how oil is always at the bottom of these problems. I believe that I live in a country that I should not have to worry about this, a coup d'etate. But you never know.
The most frightening of all aspects of this video is the media. There is no such thing as an unbiased media in this country. Apparently there is 5 companies that own all the media, and they control the flow of information. The reason this is so dangerous is due the fact that US citizens live in democracy were we assume that there si a free flow of information. not so much.

guitar QUEERO

Yep, i am one of those people. I just beat easy mode, and I am off to medium mode. It only took 2 months! keep in mind that i only play it at josh's house and that I spent a lot of the time playing with him, especially in the beginning. My poor little pinkie.
Mark doesn't care for video games, josh only cares because i do, and my mom is hopelessly lost with a controller in her hands. I had her over a while ago to play it and for dinner, it went well. But she didn't do to well at the game.

moral: if you play hard, you'll get better. Play too hard and your little pinkie will hurt...

Channeling emotion

In west side story, there is a brief moment were the reason the boys must fight is explained, it is too get rid of all the extra feeling they feel, and once they rumble they feel so healthy. Odd.
In my life, I am confronted with many tasks, most of the ones for school are not very therapeutic, so I found myself making armor today. Interesting.
I need to buy a serious amount of Elmer's glue today, I need it for my armor. But, I think it is going to look great.
I will soon have the spray paint for the sword, that will take a day to spray, then the next day I will detail it. Then the sword will be done.
The wings are out of my hands, so I can only trust they will be done on time.
The armor is my biggest challenge.

baby elephant walk

I can always depend on a few things to cheer me up. Music is a great thing. One song that I can't ever make it through without whistling along is "Baby Elephant Walk" by Mancini.
I made some art today. Like all the other emo people do when they are sad. Although I am not emo, I am just sensitive. Yes, some of you might be asking what is the difference? Simple answer, emo kids have more money than I do. Seriously, all that emo gear is not cheap.
I am going out tonight, with josh. Then tomorrow I begin with my counseling and then classes. Things are working in circles, slow circles.
Think hard about that.

Privee

information is power. You don't deserve it, as a reader, you get information in a Plato-kinda way. Plato had this idea about stuff being a copy of some original.

Photogenic

You know what makes people photogenic? It is depth. Humans can see depth, because they have two eyes. But a camera only sees from one angle, with one eye. It is this difference that makes people photgenic or not.

The forum

I am back on the forum, and it is funny the stuff that comes up on a private forum. People will say things that they wouldn't say on a public forum.

Looking over a weary shoulder, counting the sunsets this midsummers day, my mind wandered. Missed opportunities, lost loves, turning points in ones life, different goals, I pondered how many times, and with how many different people I'd fallen in love with.

Yes, I believe you can fall in love with more than one person in a lifetime, real love, that carries obsessional and passionate thougts and feelings, caring and thoughtful, really in love.

I thought, and counted six people I'd fallen in love with, some interupted by tragedy, others by my stupidity, and youthful foolishness, wanderlust and immaturity. I did in fact miss opportunities for love, and yes I fell in love with more than one person at the same time. I think that this is natural, and can happen to anyone,,,,,,,?

Discontented by the thought of monogomy,,,,,,no. I wanted marriage, and no, not a polygamy by nature fanatic, just a bunch of circumstances, that deprived me of experiences some people in my age group share w/one person for a lifetime.

Do people fall in love with more than one person in a lifetime, and is it possible to truly be in love with more than one person at one time. I think yes, I was wondering what you thought,,,,,,,

Jerry C.

I am not one to love, especially to admit that I might love. I none the less answered his post with one of my own.
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Turok

Turok is broken! Now what am I supposed to shoot at?

Too Far

I dug too deep recently. You can see the post about it below someplace. I suppose that in retrospect, the beauty of the situation is that I am more of an island than I ever intended. I crave social interaction. That will be my downfall. I have taken extreme measures to find out what I know. And it has cost me. More my integrity than anything else.
I arte requestare un amigo a put elle occupado en elle linne. Caused matto dmittare a mia reputino, e tatte a marnea sippe.
I just wish it could go away. You have no idea what I would give for it to just... be gone.

Figlio Perduto

There is a legend of a lost child in the woods. Separated from a human father and taken away by a Elvin king.

This song was put into an operatic piece, and used as the theme for the Movie "The Fall". It plays once at the beginning of the movie and once at the end.
So sad...
The movie is amazing and beautiful.

Chalk on the wall, dirt under the nails

I have seena lot of things in my life, I mena more than the average 22 year old white male. Many 22 year olds are more experienced in certain things, less in other things (which I happen to excel in).
I suppose that I should be more to the point. because of what I do in my life, I have access to a lot of information. And information is power. I have hunted down and scoped out more information as of late. And i know something that I didn't want to see.

I needed to STOP DIGGING AROUND! I knew I might not like what I found. I should have just backed off, and stopped asking questions. I was getting close to a secret that I couldn't handle. Should have let it go.


I just couldn't let it go.

would not come

If I am masculine I will be taken more seriously
If I take a break it would make me irresponsible
If I'm elusive I will surely be sought after often
If I need assistance then I must be incapable
And Still it would not come
--Alanis Morissette

Up so early.

I believe the below says it all.

In my Fantasy

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo giusto,
Li tutti vivono in pace e in onestà.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo chiaro,
Li anche la notte è meno oscura.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano.
Pien' d'umanità.

Nella fantasia esiste un vento caldo,
Che soffia sulle città, come amico.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Dangerous, again

I am returning to facebook. For there is no longer anything hiding from me. The guilty party has come forward. And Will be accepting punishment sometime down the road. Hopefully sooner than later.

Dangerous...

Facebook is dangerous. I am going to go dormant for a while. Please don't' think that this has anything to do with any third party personnel, it is an internal thing. Ask details if you must, but I am sure that when someone omits certain information... they are guilty of crimes most heinous.
I suppose that the lesson to be learned here is that sometimes silence speaks louder than words can. Just repeat that slowly, it isn't as lame as it sounds.

early again

I am back to waking up at 6 or 7 in the morning to do classwork... yippee.

Oedipus Tyrannos

This is probably my new second favorite play of all time. It is really good. I mean the plot line sounds boring and crappy, but once you read it, it all meshes together so well. Anyway... good play, all should read it.
Moral: there is a reason why certain things are classics and are still being read today...

the things we do

I cannot believe I am actually going to see a professional about my lack of lust... This sucks...

Edit: But, whatever... at least you know i am trying. I think that counts for something. I know your trying really hard too. And I understand that your attempts are pretty much at my request. So this is the least I owe you.

OK, but seriously

What does it take to get an A in this class...
I am not going to kiss anymore ass right now. I already have a mouth full of ass from my Censorship class...
Sign Language is going to be far more difficult that I anticipated, also. So lord help me...

Eagle Eye

A fun film with little merit if you have more than half a brain and can see futurism where creators and directors failed to realize what they were making. The film itself is a great time, lots of stuff exploding and it has "my boy" in it as the lead. josh knows who I mean. Anyway. The reason why I decide to post this tonight basically boils down to: fate brings people together. I saw a couple tonight at work who met in line for coffee. They are only dating, but you never know if they will make it all the way to gettin' hitched.
In the movie, the two lead characters are not brought together by fate, but by a crazy computer that controls almost everything. In the end they become close(?) friends.
Moral of the story: I am tired and don't want to write my paper.
Moral of that addition: Never be surprised if what you are reading looks like it might hold some merit, but is nothing more than mindless dribble.

C_hange_s

I am upgrading to vista.
From there. I will not install Boinc. I will test each part in this order.
Removal of Raid_1 for primary HDD, converted into a single Hard disk that will have a c:/Feresh files folder. Not a partition.
I will move my audio card down so that I am sure it receives enough airflow.
I can expect all this to cut the power requirements by 40 watts.
Everything will be set to default, and I will not be overclocking for a few weeks.
Motherboard monitor 5, is all that i will using for monitoring my computer. Process explorer is probably not going to happen...
But I just don't understand.

vista

this is how vista works: oem sales are based on a one time install... or at least a one motherboard install. in order to get around that, you must claim that it is a replacement based on a warranty.

Mysteries of the Organism

it's impressionism.

Begin the tests

I have made it through the night. I will start up trillian again. I will also be runing the indexer, as that is very unlikely to cause the freeze.

The hardest part

The most difficult of things that I have had to do recently would be to maintain my cool. I have been having trouble with my computer. And it seems that I have possibly found the solution... it can only be a few things: or so I feel. I will be testing them in this order: Trillian, the index engine of my computer, a osi drive emulator, Boinc, process explorer, a ram monitor, and a temperature monitor. Most likely it is the Boinc or the iso emulator...

Moral of the story: If you must suffer, and most suffer alone, at least try and strategically end your suffering. Do it in a calm way that will result in the least amount of damage, be swift and do not drag it all out.

people

The exact reason for the ticking of people is a mystery to me. I don't pretend to know who everyone around me is. Of course I know a bit about all of them, but none of them do I understand completely. For example there are three people that have recently started to visit me at work very often.
The first is an old friend who has recently returned to America. Little has changed between she and I, and that is good.
The second is a gentleman who has come to the store for quite some time. Things have recently become different when I saw another side of him, outside of his mother and father.
The third is a new face, who I am still very confused about. The funniest thing is, I know so little about any of them, especially this last one.
I mean I know what they do for a living and all that, and I know a great deal about there dietary habits, even outside of ice cream. But they are still almost strangers to me.
Moral: People will always show you anew face if you let them. Brush of the unpleasant details and get to the heart of the person, from here you can decide where you fall.

not again...

Ann killed another computer...

Seth Mcfarlane

Seriously, he is hot. I might do him. I suppose it is because he is so odd... or because he voices a character that drinks about as intolerably as I do. I relate best with the character of Brian. And since my brain works on a very transitive basis, I have grown to approve of Seth. Tada!
... But seriously, he is fuckin hot.

Fighting on the internet is like running in the Special Olympics, even if you win your still retarded.

F.E.A.R. Extraction Point

not really too scary, but what can one expect from the second instalment of a game. The third chapter should be amazing.

Wires

14 Gauge galvanized aluminium wire is what I need for my wings. got it.

on the last post

The last post is why I don't have pets, they always up and die...
just kidding...

Meadowlark

When I was a boy, I had a favourite story
Of the meadowlark who lived where the rivers wind
Her voice could match the angels' in its glory,
But she was blind,
The lark was blind.

the king of the rivers took her to his palace,
Where the walls were burnished bronze and golden braid,
And he fed her fruit and nuts from an ivory chalice and he prayed


"Sing for me, my meadowlark
Sing for me of the silver morning.
Set me free, my meadowlark
And I'll buy you a priceless jewel,
And cloth of brocade and crewel,
And I'll love you for life if you will
Sing for me."


Than one day as the lark sang by the water
The god of the sun heard her in his flight
And her singing moved him so, he came and brought her
The gift of sight,
He gave her sight.
And she opened her eyes to the shimmer and the splendour
Of this beautiful young god, so proud and strong
And he called to the lark in a voice both rough and tender,
"Come along,


Fly with me, my meadowlark,
Fly with me on the silver morning.
Past the sea where the dolphins bark,
We will dance on the coral beaches,
Make a feast of the plums and peaches,
Just as far as your vision reaches,
Fly with me."


But the meadowlark said no,
For the old king loved her so,
She couldn't bear to wound his pride.
So the sun god flew away and when the king came down that day,
He found his meadowlark had died.
Every time I heard that part I cried.


And now I stand here, starry-eyed and stormy.
Oh, just when I thought my heart was finally numb,
A beautiful young man appears before me
Singing "Come
Oh, won't you come?"
And what can I do if finally for the first time
The one I'm burning for returns the glow?
If love has come at last it's picked the worst time
Still I know
I've got to go.


Fly away, meadowlark.
Fly away in the silver morning.
If I stay, I'll grow to curse the dark,
So it's off where the days won't bind me.
I know I leave wounds behind me,
But I won't let tomorrow find me
Back this way.


Before my past once again can blind me,
Fly away.


And we won't wait to say goodbye,
My beautiful young man and I.

select few

Gepoon deppen, totte le flame mutol. Non ette balere. Seme me gormisimo e potulaisimo con tumi. Forever Again. Wish I could learn something from these experiences: I hate them all.

really?

is .2 gHz worth 200 bones? I don't think so. Same cache, same FSB, but $200 more for .17 Ghz faster. I can overclock that for free...

Slow Motion Lightning @ Yahoo! Video

Boo Radley

Neighbors bring food with death, flowers with sickness, and little things in between. Boo was our neighbor, he gave us two soap dolls, a broken watch and chain, a knife, and our lives.

regrets

I woke alone in the woods, but I felt that i was with company. I hurried this way and that, but I knew they were still with me where ever I went. And I had the taste of blood and chocolate in my mouth, one as sweet as the other.

pooh bear

Should you live for 100 years more, I hope i live for 100 years minus a day, so that i never have to live without you.

living ona dream

It is amazing what people can do, as far as allowing themselves to keep hope. Hoping that somewhere out there,there is someone still loving them. I am referring to a couple that i know, on opposite sides of the world. They have maintained a love for so long, and the time for them to be rejoined is coming closer. I congratulate them.

3/19/07

that was the last time the rainbow puke website was updated... so I have little hope of my rainbow art making it online.

http://librivox.org/

http://librivox.org/ is a website where you can download a ton of audiobooks. It really is pretty cool.

blackberrys

what the heck? these phones are very similar, josh... but in my opinion you should go with the 8330-- for two reasons. First, you already have the case... and secondly, stereo bluetooth and headphone jack. Sounds like a good combo to me.
Now, what about your old phone? if Wendys is only allowing you to use the new phone for work, then you you will have two of the exact same phone... that might get confusing. So if that is the case, you should get the 8830.

Recommended:
Serebro - Song.1

AIDS sucks...

Or should I say that it blows?

seriouskly

There are a lot of famous people in this skit. That just proves that everyone must have a silly side: Brad Pitt, Harrison Ford, Cameron Diaz, Joan Jett, Macy Gray, Robin Williams, Don Cheadle, Pete Wentz, Perry Farrell, Benji and Joel Madden, Lance Bass, Huey Lewis, Josh Groban, McLovin, Meatloaf, and former announcer and Mighty Mighty Bosstones frontman Dicky Barrett.

See more funny videos at Funny or Die

dam!!

See more Paris Hilton videos at Funny or Die

I feel kinda bad

I feel kinda bad about something. I am not going to tell you what it is, that is not the point of this post. I am posting tonight to state that there is plenty for me to feel bad about. Certain people, should they read this, will think certain things while others think it is about a completely different thing. I am not a bad person, I just make mistakes. But I take the fall for my own behavior, I am not one to push blame onto others, just as it is rare for me to take the blame for others. So, if anyone is reading this, and feels like I have something to feel bad about; tell me. But please, keep it to things where i have wronged you, not others.

On New York

I went out to New York this past week. 90% of the time i was not in the air conditioning. It was really hot there, and I was drinking about 3 liters of water each day, usually about a liter and a half while out walking, a liter throughout the night, because it was so hot, and the rest with meals. I was very lucky to have this time with my family, but it is nice to be back. I need to work my tail off to not stay in the black.

intelectual property

think about it.

gay?

Are you serious? He is a homo? I always thought that he was a little odd. But, gay. He really is. It is a small world.

talk about solid.

The argument is not against "gay" marriage.

It's against alternative definitions to marriage.

We already define marriage in a moral sense.

You cannot marry more than one person.

You cannot marry before you are both 18.

You cannot marry your horse, house or elbow.

"Gay marriage" is a new idea. Previously, gays cohabitated, just like heterosexual couples. Now, this is used as an attack on marriage.

"Marriage" is not a union open to gays, anymore than the "Boys" room is open to girls.
7 months ago

The Seventh Seal

uhm, ann... I am not sure i really liked this movie.

the christ child and mary

You mean you don't believe me? But it was real just the same, not the kind of reality you see, but the kind that you sense with your heart. But it's still true.

i am

so not liquid.

surrealism vs formism (and a touch of cubism)

a brief summery for those who have seen Hellboy 2 with me:
Surrealism is when things become other things, the art is filled with visuals, all of which are very compelling and unstoppable in their transformations from one object to another.
Formism is when something is something else. There are not transformations, and visual are equally powerful, but they are stable.
Many people misunderstand there's two, and they try to call everything surrealism, simply because that term is more popular.
Now, cubism (as it related to my term paper) is an entirely different matter, where one thing is taken apart into pieces, and every angle of it is viewed simultaneously. it is much harder to understand, because it gives you the entire picture at one time.

salt flats

I found myself in the salt flats. I was laying down with chest up towards the sky and my head was looking to toward my right. There was a rope that attached me to him, but it wasn't like any other rope, it was a very rigid, almost as if it was a pole or rod, but it was indeed a rope. It was exactly 60 feet long.
SO, I found myself staring down this rope at him, and he had the audacity to taunt me. So, using the rope to my advantage, I began to roll my head toward the left, and picked him up right of the ground, I ripped him through the air and slammed him into the ground on my left. Then I found myself as the him, laying in the salt flats also, and angered by all of this, I picked him up and held him in the air, directly above me, just letting him dangle there, then i brought him down toward the ground, but stopped before he reached it. Just let him hang there, ten feet above the ground.

Ever felt like you are just fighting yourself?

Damage pottential

I find it funny how badly people can break things. I have no idea, well at least not an absolute idea, of what is wrong with Ann's computer. I think it is the button on the front, others are clueless as well. But the funny thing is, I am halfway on the way to fixing it. I am not halfway there, just halfway on the way.

hiding behind a smile

I just posted on the OS something very inflammatory. Basically I said that since more people die from falls than from war, liberals should replace their anti-war stickers with anti skyscraper stickers. But I am safe, I put two smileys int he message.

Mark Curls

hahah! Love it. This is the guy that helped my ass sober up a while ago. I am sure that i blogged about it previously, but I can't remember when. So, I talked to him this weekend and we exchanged number again. Well, turns out that he and I had a lovely conversation tonight. Lovely. He is a great guy. I will have to fuck him--
just kidding.

not a cry... not somebody's who's seen the light.

I will admit that i have made mistakes, and that many people have suffered because of them, but none more than myself. That is not meant to sound cocky, but it is the truth. I take responsibility for my actions, and my success. I stood on the shoulders of giants once, and it was scary, but I made it. I thank them for that, but that was not good enough. But when I fall, it is epic failure that is soley mine to bare. Ia m alone in the end.

There is a contradicting idea out there, about death, none the less. One side says that no creature dies alone, as we are all with god in that moment. and the opposing says that everything must die by itself, being understood by none.

magick chord

hallelujah.
faith was strong, but needed proof.
beauty in the moonlight, tied me to the kitchen chair, and from my lips drew the hallelujah.
I've been here before, used to live alone before i knew you. love is not a victory march, cold and broken hallelujah.
Let me know what's real and going on. Remember when I moved in you, every breath we drew was hallelujah.
t6here's a God above and all we learned from love was a cry you can hear, not somebody who has seen the light.

Guy at Axis IV

Back on January 29th I wrote about a guy named Joel Field. He was wearing blue underwear. I saw him at pride at Axis this weekend, wearing black underwear with a blue stripe. That is all...

texts...

what does it mean if someone texts you, telling you that they just left the gym?

the bleeding

When I get stressed out... The blood just comes.

dissapointed

I can't believe that a friend I haven't spoken to on the phone in over half a year has chosen to masturbate rather than answer my phone call. And then he tells me to hold on till he finishes.

not so far away

This stripper guy wanted me. Or at least wanted my money, till i called him out on being on the payroll.
I suppose I should be complimented? Or maybe not. It was rather interesting how it happened, mostly because there was an immediate destruction of the illusion. But he was nice enough. And one thing I learned that night, is that being nice to people does pay off. It paid off as soon as I got to axis.

I don't want to divulge any more details, because it is just going to make me sound trashy, but my closing thought is this:

Don't be rude to someone just because they are ugly. Often times "ugly" people are just as nice as everyone else. And also, don't be mean to hot people, often times hot people are just as nice as everyone else.

mark is right

he is correct. Pride and Comfest should not be on the same weekend. Naturally you would expect the larger event to take priority. But, pride is the same weekend nationally, Comfest is a Columbus thing. So, should Comfest move for pride or vise-versa? Mark feels that Pride, since national, should take priority. Most straight people feel Comfest should. Does Mark feel this because of him being gay? or does he genuinely feel that Pride is a national phenomena?

Reflection on the system

The system works. it has worked for years and years and years. But it changes the people involved. Suddenly they are all hard... little pieces of them have died inside. as they hurt in and out, scratching out the days on the wall.

odd bag of emotions (at 2:30 am)

I try to not be pissed.
But, realizing that i have no right to be. And it all makes sense. I see what you have been hiding from me for so long. That you lied and hid it from me for months, and then kept cloaked in vagueness until yesterday. You still haven't told me, because you don't think I should know, I found out all by myself and hundreds of miles didn't hide it any better than 5 blocks would have. But, do not think that I am going to hold you up longer. I shall let you float... so very gently away.

But, I can not keep you from calling back to me. I am not sure how I will respond, with anger or with love. Foe now; this explains silence. For future, I tell you lovingly to fuck off.

Turok

It is way harder to kill dinosaurs when you are drunk. I swear, didn't think that martini(s) had that much of a punch.

so popular...

i have given two interviews over the past week, one appeared on national news (Fox news) and the other is a podcast for Columbus food. The funny thing is, and I am realizing this now, the interviewers completely changed what i said to make me fit their story/motive. They original dialogue is so horribly chopped and hacked up that it makes me sound like I have a completely different motive.
So, my advice, decline to be interviewed.

skip to 14 mins for my interview.

http://columbusfood.libsyn.com/index.php?post_id=349089

Odd to admit this...

but that Miley Cyrus has a half decent voice. I say half decent because I assume that there is a lot of audio FX going on with the music...
But that song "See You Again" isn't bad. At least the remixes I hear.

interesting comparison

That is so Gay!
That is so Black!

One of these is perfectly acceptable, the other will get you kicked in the teeth.

GAYS IN THE MILITARY

I don't think that gays should have to serve in the military. Women should be drafted before gays, because the heads of the country do more to support them. The guys signing the war papers support women more than they support gay men. Don't believe me?
What freedoms to gays have than women don't? I am only going to discuss the one that is on my mind now, I am sure I could come up with others if this did not preoccupy me so. Marriage.
Straight guys bitch about how if they have to die for their country, they should be able to buy a six pack for their country-- this complaint only lasts for three years, between ages 18 when they are eligible for draft and 21 when they can buy alcohol. Gay men have can complain for 8 years, until they are 26 and ineligible for the draft. But, they still complain afterward... because their problem still exists.

Veritus Clatta

Anche depo il Combitteroa. Sees intersting, ma, tia blet cept itss.

Noodle!

I saw a noodle today. She was very warm from the walk, but I gave her some ice cream and she was very happy to see me. I knew right away that she recognized me. But the funny thing is, she would not listen to Kate when Kate wanted her to go. But all it took was me guiding her up/out of the corner to send her on her way. Funny how dogs can remember you after a long(ish) time.

still here

I am still here, and I am doing alright.
I suppose I owe you an update. Funny how I assign you an update...
Anyway, I suppose I should begin where I left off, with reflecting on what I see.
I see "shiny" things all around me, but I know that many of them are simply gilded shit. There is little below the surface.
Now, as far as the specifics of this life. I am listening to a lot more music, especially because there are some halfway decent speakers at work now. I recently had an interesting conversation with someone about music. They claim to be alright with every type of music, but they are of the opinion that techno should stop existing. So, they are obviously not tolerant of everything. I don't understand why people don't just say that they only like certain types of music.
On another note:
Sapphire Martini, up, three olives. I am not alone in this!

http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1813453

reality

**This post include specific code words used to mean multiple things, therefore viewing each sentence as relative to the those surrounding it is not advised.**

Relatively speaking, I am happier than I have been in a long time, because I have freed myself of a load that has been on my mind for well over a month and a half. I saw something today that lead to me smiling. And it was not that I was happy with what I saw, but more so I was happy to see it. I am glad that ed and I had the impression that he hoped we would. I am glad I could do that for him.
But that was last night, and time moves in only one direction-- directly in one direction. Today I saw something very similar walk by my store. I saw a pair of eyes look so distantly toward high street, avoiding the temptation to look into my store.
And so, as I stared right at her, preparing to wave friendly if she looked in, I realized that she is trying to create a new life for herself, which can include very limited things from her old life. I did not look in the same way as she crossed back in front of my store the second time. I just gave her the space she requested, even though she would have never known if I was mentally hovering six inches away from her.
So, I feel better. At least like I have an understanding a bit more for her inexcusable actions. Perhaps there is a certain magic in these inane ramblings, all of which uncover a bit more of my own feelings-- things that are not child's game.

Guy at Axis III

Back on January 29th I wrote about a guy named Joel Field. Well, I bumped into him again last night. Nice guy, really. I didn't know where I knew him from at first, but I figured it out.
I really don't think there is much else to say.

back to 32 bit

I have returned to 32 bit windows XP. I like it better.

lymph nodes

Do you know what the lymph nodes do? they act as filters for the blood. Basically, if you have an infection (bacterial) they catch the bacteria. They also trap an foreign crud in your blood, which often enters through an open wound. Now, cocoa powder is very messy, and my neck feel like it is going to burst now... let's do some math...
Anyway, I hope that it goes away soon. I can hardly swallow.

palm... was great while it lasted

I still love my palm pilot, Leopold. But now that palm sucks as a company, they don't have 64 bit drivers... I am not able to link it to my computer. All the crazy loops that i have tried to jump through have been to no avail.
dammit.